chelsea

ok... i have never been this hype.. chelsea against barcelona... go chelsea~!!!

me and myself

as day unfold and drew towards the end... din even have lunch.. wasn't feeling hungry at all.. still full from this morning's breakfast... :)

as i went about to meet my last customer... i saw one of my friend having his food with his friends... as i still have time in between... i sat down and talk to them... as we talk.. i realize.. there's a brag-star in the group... man.. he talk about how his business roll~ lol... please! i'm not a wizard in business but at least i have some sense when it comes to run or operate a business... and u my "friend"... u have no clue... find a location and just open a shop?? without survey?? guts feeling it will run alright?? open a shop base on guts feeling??

u see.. i can tolerate at times lazy people but stupid people?? lol.. please....

i know i at times act stupid.. sometimes retarded too.. but at least i try not to show off my stupidity...

can't get my mind off her for the whole day today... i never smile this much since the day we broken up... i really really enjoy her company during these past few days....... lol.. i can so just gaze blankly in the air, think about her and smile all day... :)

oh... time to check out again....

i'm beginning to like this blog... :)

thanks ping.....

mr. dream

ShhhHhhh... what a cute picture... it has been all and all a very interesting week for me... i have been meeting up with her for quite often these few days... she really make my day... especially everytime she lies on my shoulder... everytime she did that... it makes me feel alright again... to give me all the reason to stay strong again.....

how complicated many would say....

honest... so long as we have a clear cut objective... it's really not that complicated... everything in the middle is just the story... it matter if u reach the objective or not... that is what matter...

she looks prettier each time i see her.. Haha.. gives me the heart skip a beat.. almost everytime when i'm with her... i really enjoy such feeling.. :)

went for a late yum char session with her friends on saturday night... got to chat with one of the old friend.. desmond.. oh god.. he just got himself a new car.. i was nonetheless.. shock.. it seems everyone is getting a new car... many would say.. it's only a vios.. it's not that it's only a vios.. it's a new car.. everyone seems to be getting one... crap~~ now thats what i called pressure...

i have been wanting to get a new car for a very long time... have been doing some scouting as well.. finger cross i will get one very soon...

got to have breakfast and lunch with her today... the feeling was beyong awesome.. i get to see her so much and best of all.. i get to talk to her to sleep...

i really just want to get this over with and able to call her as someone special...

they say.. don just follow your dreams, chase them... i'm so holding the dream by its neck now.. chocking it out of air... i'm telling it.. i want it... and i will grip it harder and tighter untill i get it... so "mr.dream".... u feel me now?? show stopper is here to stay...

what a motivational talk... i strongly believe.. there's law of attraction... i'm sure it will be good in the end.. it's on the track... i'm very sure...

toy soldier

I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure
Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
I am never supposed to show it, my crew ain't supposed to know it
Even if it means goin' toe to toe with a Benzino it don't matter
I'd never drag them in battles that I can handle unless I absolutely have to I'm supposed to set an example
I need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide 'em
If some shit ever just pop off, I'm supposed to be beside 'em

Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers

poet's poem

Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to midnight
Don't wake when lightning strikes
My heart for you is true
Let no one take that from you
Time is running tight
Can't change from wrong to right
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little
Just like how we used to be baby

Its time to say farewell now
No need to cry of feeling sorrow
It's alright
All in the book of life
Heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go

I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace my sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can change my world from black to white
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little more

Look ahead tomorrow long and winding road
Keep the faith of mine don't let it go
You're the only reason that night ain't growing cold
What would I do without you
Life no longer empty with you in my heart

motivation

interest in life comes from setting a huge, apparently unachievable challenges and trying to rise above them...from the perspective of wanting to live life to the full, felt that you had to attempt it

hanging out

every country has its own catch phrase... malaysia is malaysia boleh

australia is-- aussie aussie aussie, oi oi oi..

i find it to be so interesting... their chant really pump ppl up.. what malaysia boleh.. sounds lame

have been thinking.. she once told me.. everytime meet up with me also argue argue argue.. i'm very happy as of recent that we have not been arguing at all..... i'm having such a great time hanging out with her... :)

我做得到

someone said the furthest distance in this world is not between life and death but is when stand in front of the person u love and she don't know about it
i always say if a person have to control themself even when loving someone then the end of the world is already here

夜黑夜寂寞的夜里
气生气对自己生气
软弱的电话又打给你
想听你那边的空气
有什麽精采的话题
你还是温柔给我婉转的距离
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那麽大为何我要忘你无处逃
我的声音在笑泪在飙电话那头的你可知道
世界若是那麽小为何我的真心你听不到
会很会伪装我自己
你不该背我的秘密
沉重都给我微笑给你
奔狂奔空旷的感情
走暴走暴走的伤心
透明的叹息最後还是我的秘密
听不到听不到我的执着扑通扑通一直在跳
直到你有一天能够明了我做得到
我做得到

untitled

I don't think I love you enough
I have never forgotten myself
I think I didn't invest my whole heart into the relationship
That's why I failed
I forgot your courage
We can't start over again
So let's just let fate lead us
I am unable to stay in this moonless night
Neither can I close my eyes
Becaus you will appear in the skies or the stars
I can't be in a empty field
Neither can I escape into the crowd
Because loneliness will remind me
That I have lost the person I did not love enough

lost of word

lost in translation, lost of words... only melody can sing out what i feel.. let the music take the lead... see u in dream later dear... :)

whereby there is u, hope, and many many happy things.... i still remember we went paddling on the duck on a rainy day at the lake... u've been the one that imprint such a deep memory... u're the very one............ u r....... the very one....................

只说给你听

昨夜 忽然夢見你 久違了的幸福 近得讓人哭泣 伸手
醒在黑夜裡 除了眼淚 只聽見窗外的雨 我應該慶幸此生
曾經遇見你曾經愛過你 然後用歲月來惦記 我愛你
自你離我遠去 這句話也變成了秘密 在無數夢裡 我愛你
重複說給你聽 就像那夜的你 安靜的 溫柔的 依戀的
在我懷裡 讓我輕撫著你 只說給你一個人聽 當時 害怕失去你
何時何地 都想伸手握住你 直到今天 每一次想到我和你
不再有任何交集 就有說不出委屈 也許今生我就是為了
能夠遇見你能夠愛你 我學著用時間來回憶你 不會哭泣
有人形容生命像一路 一站又一站 漫長的旅行
後來總是想念途中那段最美風景

很愛很愛你

想為你做件事　讓你更快樂的事
好在你的心中埋下我的名字
求時間　趁著你　不注意的時候
悄悄地　把這種子釀成果實
我想她的確是　更適合你的
我太不夠溫柔優雅成熟懂事
如果我　退回到　好朋友的位置
你也就　不再需要為難成這樣子
很愛很愛你　所以願意　捨得讓你
往更多幸福的地方飛去
很愛很愛你　只有讓你
擁有愛情　我才安心
看著她走向你　那幅畫面多美麗
如果我會哭泣也是因為歡喜
地球上　兩個人　能相遇不容易
做不成你的情人我仍感激
很愛很愛你　所以願意　不牽絆你
飛向幸福的地方去

相愛無夢

跟你抱著 未等於愛上
不再抱著 未等於不想
你我在這分鐘
說過無緣再見
下秒鐘再湊巧碰上
即使一起 貌合卻又神離
分隔兩地 日夜掛著愁眉
再各自結新歡
卻暗地拿你去比較現有的
始終偏袒你
有心愛你卻愛不到
抱緊了你卻又未想終老
再等到與對方失散之後
就會知 原來誰最好
愛不到至會更想愛
抱緊了你我又無心裝載
我跟你也破不到
男與女之間 愛情的定數
一個過活 恨抱著情人
一對過活 又掛念誰人
到了話要分開
你我尚有惻隱
又再探聽對方新聞

koori

where art thou... where art thou......

where.....

awesome lucky day

yesterday happen to be my luckies day...

i get to have breakfast with her, talk to her like a lottttttttt of times and also able to talk to her before she went to sleep.... oh yea... and also TBE get to secure 2 deals....

it was indeed a my very lucky day....

as i lie on bed last night thinking of some of the words she said to me... well i have to digest it.. else how am i going to improve?? yea yea.. haters says whatever u want.. lol

anyway as i was digesting what she says.. i recall she told me.. she already can guess what i want to say or do... she wants something different, something fresh... such statement really makes me wonder... u c.. this is how i look at things... when a couple have been dating for sometime... everything stabilize... freshness a little bit here and there yes.. but it won't be as fresh as like meeting someone new because things already stabilize.... not rocky...

she once told me.. she wants to settle down but how can she settle down when she is still seeking for that freshness?? i mean.. as things goes longer, it tends to stabilize....

maybe i'm confuse on the type of freshness she is seeking.. i'm sure i can figure this out so long as i put my mind and effort to it..

as i was playing badminton yesterday.. i talk to a new friend... he was saying his salary is low and that he wanted to earn more but he can't.... i was once in his position, everyone wants more money to say the least.. but honest.. y just sit and sigh.. y not do something about it.. u can do part time or just do something to earn more... sitting there... money wont come to u..

i also talk to one of my customer yesterday... she asked me if i'm interested to sell some of her products in the market... u c.. this is always the way i look at it...

if today i'm putting in a 2 dollars worth of effort work.. i hope to get back at least a 3 to 6 dollars worth of pay... i wont settle down for a 1 dollar worth of pay unless.... unless... i'm sitting at home and doing nothing then i don mind the 1 dollar pay because at least it's still money

i'm happy with my current work and to co-operate.. if it's a 2 dollar worth of effort with a 2 dollar woth of pay.. honest.. i have no interest at least for the moment...

as i wrap up my day, a customer asked me how i see myself in 5 years time or before i reach age 30... i drew a picture to her on what i see or how i want it to be... as i was drawing the whole picture.. i briefly said how i'm going to achieve it... she was impress and compliment.. which make me blush to say the least... she continued saying that not many young man dare to dream of such and work to achieve that thing... many younger generation don have such drive or dream....

i'm actually very happy that she told me that... i always pump up when it comes to talk about business, money and how to grow as whole..... i relinguish we have to make something out of our life... it's fate that we born poor but it's pathetic if we die poor...

i know a lot of ppl also want to be rich but then many told me money is not everything.. i couldn't agree much... money is not everything but if a person have a potential to go higher and further y settle for just normal life...

i would always sya this.. if u can earn 10 dollars why settle for just 1 dollar.... whatever u r doing.. make sure u give it your best shot... be it in work, studies or relationship... give it your best shot.. give the world your best and world will give u back its best...

that is my philosophy.... if after u gave your best and u still fail.. at least we did our best... but i always believe.. a winner does not only reach the 100% milestone... he always a step further.. thats what makes a sales and supersales difference... an academy award winner and a normal actor difference, a sold out concert singer and a half fill concert singer... bill gates and normal individual...

there's a difference... we all r human but what make us all difference... its the mindset to strive higher ground, give it best and have a determination of steel... of course.. a stronger faith in belive he can do it than any normal person....

muy two cents of the day

ghost

i receive a mail saying there's what ghost in genting apartment ria...

honest... all this ghost thing.. i always think it's absurd... ok maybe there is but what contribute most to it is our imagination... one my friend told me.. a feng shui master once told her that she will end up a second wife and not the first wife... is because ppl like this feng shui master that make her think she will never be first wife and thus end up be the second wife...

what we think, how we think is how we chart our life... u keep thinking u will lose or u r a failure... i will be surprise if u don end up a loser or a failure... and the funny thing is how many people buy all this crap...

if u feel down i understand... we are afraid because of uncertainty.. that i also understand too but to keep thinking negative??

u have such good imagination to think about ghost... y don u put such imagination to earn more money or do something extra ordinary for your love one?? put the imagination on arts also better than create silly ghost story... Please~!! such story can even at times make some people cry... for what??

but of course there r many things that never make sense to me but make sense to other people.. thats what make human so unique and different...

25 this year.. getting old.. i still remember when i was only 15... talking about stupid pc games and football at that time... time past so fast......

completing

Heaven, wasn’t meant to be a delusion
It’s just that I have long forgotten how to take flight
Loneliness is one person’s celebration
Celebration is a group of people’s loneliness
Love starts with being a companion
But I’m already slowly forgetting
How it was to have a companion
I eat, travel and hang around by myself
I also read, write and talk by myself
It’s just that the heart has drifted off somewhere so far
Even myself I couldn’t see where I have drifted
I think I’m not merely only losing you
Remember it was once said “I’ll be there for you”
Thanks for completing me for the past 2 years

一直很安静

空蕩的街景想找個人放感情做這種決定是寂寞與我為鄰

我們的愛情像你路過的風景一直在進行腳步卻從來不會為我而停

給你的愛一直很安靜來交換你偶爾給的關心明明是三個人的電影我卻始終不能有姓名

你說愛像雲要自在飄浮才美麗我終於相信分手的理由有時候很動聽

給你的愛一直很安靜我從一開始就下定決心以為自己要的是曾經卻發現愛一定要有回音

給你的愛一直很安靜除了淚在我的臉上任性原來緣份是用來說明你突然不愛我這件事情

一路上有你

你知道嗎　愛你並不容易　
還需要很多勇氣　
是天意吧　好多話說不出去　就是怕你負擔不起　
你相信嗎　這一生遇見你　是上輩子我欠你的　
是天意吧　讓我愛上你　才又讓你離我而去　
也許　輪迴裡早已註定　今生就該我還你　
一顆心在風雨裡　飄來飄去　都是為你
一路上有你　苦一點也願意　
就算是為了分離與我相遇　
一路上有你　痛一點也願意　
就算這輩子註定要和你分離

就算只能在夢裡擁抱你

April 21

11.50pm.... as i sit lay back with my laptop in front of me... thoughts begin to fill my mind...

many called and ask how did i celebrate my birthday... I laugh... i just had a small dinner is my reply... well.. u just don't understand what it feel like when nothing feels alright.....

as i drove my car today to visit my customer... i listen to the radio... there's this caller called in.. he chit-chat with the host... the host ask... today is tuesday.. what day do u actually hope it'll be?? he replied.. i hope it's my birthday everyday... i smirk.. honest... whats so grand about birthday... come on, is it because i had a shitty birthday thats y i never view it as anything special??

i stumble upon the sight of her... i always have the ability to stand up to face any adversary... but i got so weak when it came to her... what is with her or should i say, what is with me that i can't be strong?? hey.. superman is afraid of kryptonite... at least superman is not weak when with louis lane~

there's more work to be done... more ground to be covered... i read an article to today... if u fall, u tried 100 times to get back up but still fail that 100 times... u should keep trying to stand up until the day u stood up... it's matter how u finish.. either u finish strong or u don't finish at all..

i found my way around and my focus.... it's been afterall more than a month... but it's really hard to let go... come on.. many said.... how hard is it... she's nobody!!

they say as if i have no clue what i should do... telling me this and that... is there actually another jest who would actually sit down and ask me.. what i want?? how should i go around it?? why such thing happen and how i can turn this around?? is everything going to be ok?? u need a shoulder?? no... u come and u say forget about it.. am i that stupid to a point i do not know that i should forget about her??

it's tough to be in the situation myself and still have to answer these stupid questions myself.. asking myself what i want, how should i go about it, at the same time handle my work, studies and put up big stupid smile...

i say many times that i can handle this because if we keep telling ourself that we can... we can actually do it... so stop the forget about her thing!! i'm tired listening to this thing over and over again....

it's so not easy to see the person u like with another guy, it's so not easy wanted to hold her so much but i have to hold every single thing back! to just wanted to tell her the magic words again but i can't...... to on the verge of breaking down, i have to pick myself up!!!!!!! myself.....

try to think other things u say.. focus on work.. u think handle own company is that easy?? it's a company, it's not even self-employ... try constant troubleshoot a new born company..

she told me yesterday.. she was hurt before i felt it now.... i couldn't agree more... but i never leave her side!!! i was always there to make it feel alright again.... where is that one time when i needed it to make it feel alright the most~!! u always thought i will be happy but did u ever think i'm not going to be okay?? did it ever cross your mind??

yesterday happen to be my birthday

i would like to say thanks to everyone that wishes me birthday yesterday... there's actually so many who cares and some even waited 12am to call or message me... thanks~!!! had an awesome dinner with someone "special" yesterday... i know i know.. it's my definition of special ya... i had it plan out monthsssssssssss ago and never thought it will come true.. so when it does.. i just enjoy the whole thing... to meet up with her the next day complete the whole thing... i'm still smilling just thinking about it.. :)

she was very good looking yesterday... oh wait.. she has always been.. lol.. i know u guys must be trying to throw up over there after reading this but hey... jest think she looks cute and u better agree with the belated birthday boy..

i'm on a roll these couple of days that i seems untouchable lately in doing sales... i'm very happy with my current achievement.. i knew it can go further and higher... oh world.. get ready... jest is coming.....

No way aesthetics marketing will lose to magicboo.... no way.. oh.. i also learn that u need to tell people about your birthday in order to get wish.. :) else nobody really care... lol

interesting article

i came across this article which i think is very aspiring....

It turns out millionaires are just like us--but they have a lot more money. When asked about their secrets to success, they don't cite anything magical or rare, but rather the steady application of wise investing strategies, hard work, and, believe it or not, a degree of frugality.

Here are 10 secrets of millionaires' money management:

Start early to avoid financial pitfalls. Adrian Cartwood, 49, author of the blog How to Make 7 Million in 7 Years, made his fortune by living frugally while he built his technology-related business. People often get into trouble, he says, by racking up personal debt early on, which acts as a big drag on their earnings. "Learn how to live within your means and how to delay gratification; these are the habits that you need to maintain on the way up, so you can keep your millions when you get there," he says.

Believe that you can do it. Before investing in real estate and becoming a millionaire, Alan Corey, author of A Million Bucks by 30, read as many biographies and autobiographies of millionaires as he could find. He says he was searching for a common characteristic that could help him in his own quest. "What I found was they all had an incredible self-belief that they would be financially successful," he says. Corey says that embracing that level of self-confidence helped him get to the top.

Articulate your vision for success. Jen Smith, author of the Millionaire Mommy Next Door blog, says that the saying, "I want to be rich," is too vague. Instead, she recommends imagining what your ideal life as a millionaire will look like. Smith offers this example: "I want to have $2,000,000 invested so that I can live off of the interest. Then I will quit my job so that I can volunteer, travel, learn to play tennis and watercolor, and enjoy picnics at the beach with my family."
Smith's vision involved becoming financially-free before becoming a parent. She cut out images from magazines of beautiful places she wanted to visit and people doing fun things and put them near her desk to help her keep that vision in mind.

Insure against life's risks. Bankruptcy is often caused by divorce, a death in the family, or a disability that renders someone unable to work. Conversely, protecting against those risks through insurance protects wealth. In The Quiet Millionaire, financial planner Brett Wilder writes that many people either fail to get adequate insurance or pay too much for it because they don't understand it.

Work hard--and you'll get lucky. In his new book, Think Like a Champion, Donald Trump attributes his success to his hard work, which to outsiders often appears to be luck. But Trump says luck only comes from working hard. "If your work pays off, which it most likely will, people might say you're just lucky. Maybe so, because you're lucky enough to have the brains to work hard!" he says. That same concept, of course, was advocated by Benjamin Franklin in the 18th century. He said, "The harder I work, the luckier I get."

Practice smart budgeting. Smith recommends tracking how much you spend each month, something she does religiously. Every month, she downloads her transactions into a spreadsheet to keep her spending on track. Smith also says that, as prosaic as it sounds, maintaining a good credit score is essential to becoming and staying a millionaire. "A good credit score can save you thousands of dollars over the course of your lifetime," she says.

Do what you love. Sure, a career in finance might come with a hefty annual salary, but you probably won't excel at something you don't enjoy. That's why Corey recommends going into the field that you find yourself reading about in your spare time. He asks, "Do you read fashion magazines? Get a job in fashion. Do you read gossip blogs? Get a job in celebrity-based enterprises. Do you read Car & Driver? ESPN.com? Yahoo Pets Forum?" Even if the field doesn't seem lucrative, there are ways to make it to the top--something that's more likely to happen if you love it.

Decide how much money you really want. For many people, $1 million won't be enough. "For most Gen-X and Gen-Yers, retiring with a couple million when they are 65 won't be anywhere near enough to maintain even an average lifestyle, because that little pup called inflation is constantly nipping at your heels as you try to run towards building your own retirement nest-egg," says Cartwood. A more reasonable goal might be $3 million-- an amount that Cartwood considers the minimum to be a "bare bones millionaire" these days. Consider your ideal lifestyle and what you would like to be able to fund. A mortgage of a certain size? Exotic vacations? College tuition for your children? Having a concrete goal in mind makes it easier to get there, says Cartwood.

Invest against the grain. Corey recommends making investment decisions based on the exact opposite of what everyone else is doing. Right now, for example, stocks are relatively cheap because so many people have sold off shares, which means anyone buying can get them at a discount to their values from a year ago. Corey's rule of thumb doesn't just apply to stocks. "Buy a foreclosed house, fill it up with roommates, and you can get a pretty good passive income," he suggests.

Live below your means. Even Eminem, a celebrity and millionaire, scales back his purchases out of concern for frugality. In February, London's Independent newspaper reported that as Eminem considered buying a $15,000 watch he liked, he started worrying that he should save his money instead. Eminem reportedly said, "I don't want to run out of money; I want my daughter to be able to go to college." And so far, at least, Eminem hasn't fallen victim to the financial challenges so many other stars, from Aretha Franklin to Annie Leibovitz, have faced.

On the same note, Smith says that even though she's a millionaire, no one would know it--and that's the point. She recommends saving at least 10 to 25 percent of your income. She also suggests avoiding buying "status" items, such as fancy sports cars or mansions. After all, bling doesn't make a millionaire--and in fact, too much of it can prevent you from ever becoming one.

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i overheard a phrase, if u're born poor, it's a fate we can't control but if we die poor, thats a pathetic fate that we choose to ignore

how true... we all are destiny to be great and have the ability to reach that pinacle.. it's of our choosing whather we choose to do so or not...

the world

life is never fair, its the survival of the fittest and seizing the right opportunity...

it's through tough time that the best came out....

whats left of me

Watched my life pass me by
in the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time
are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day
stuck in the shadow of my mistakes - yeah
(Chorus)
Cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burnin
to find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
what's left of me.
(Verse 2)
I've been dying inside
little by little
Nowhere to go
I'm goin outta my mind
An endless circle
runnin from myself until
You gave me a reason for standing still
(Chorus)
And I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burnin
to find the place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded
I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have
what's left of me.
(Hook)
Fallin' faster
barely breathing
Give me somethin to believe in
Tell me it's not all in my head
Take what's left of this man
Make me whole once again
(Chorus)
Cause I want you
and I feel you
crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burnin
to find the place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded
I'm half the man I thought I would be
You can have, all that's left, (yeah, yeah, yeah) what's left of me
(Outro)
I've been dying inside you see
I'm goin outta my mind (outta my mind)
I'm just runnin' in circles all the time
Will you take what's left? x3 -- of me
I'm just runnin' in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left? x3 -- of me
Take what's left of me

knocks you down

Heh.. not again..Ohh.. this ain't supposed to happen to me..

Keep rockin', and keep knockin'
Whether you Louis Vouiton-ed up or Reebok-in'
You see the hate, that they servin' on a platter
So what we gon' have - desert or disaster?

I never thought I'd.. be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
And you came in.. and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm in a race
But I.. already won first place

I never thought I'd.. fall for you as hard as I did(as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinkin' about our life a house and kids (yeah)
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down.. knocked me down

Sometimes love comes around(love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down(knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around(love comes around)
And it knocks you down
Just get back up
When it knocks you down

I never thoughtI'd find myself say Ya'll go ahead
I think I'm gonna kick it with my girl today
I used to be commander and chief of my pimp ship flyin' high
Til I met this pretty little missle, that shot me out the sky

So now l'm crash it, I don't know how it happened
But I know it feels so damn good
Said if I could go back, make it happen faster
Don't you know I would baby if I could
Miss independent (ohh, to the fullest), no never too much
She helpin' me pull it
She shot the bullet that ended that life
Steady pimpin' me just after tonight

Tell me now can you make it past your caspers
So we can finally fly off into NASA
You was always the cheerleader of my dreams to
Seem to only date the head of football teams
And I was the class clown that, always kept you laughin'
We, were never meant to be baby we just happen
So please, don't mess up the trick.. hey young world I'm the new slick rick
They say I move too quick, but we cannot let the moment pass us
Let the hourglass pass right into ashes
Let the wind blow the ash right before my glasses
So I wrote this love letter right before my classes
I could of got his ass, someone that's only average
For advice
O.M.G, you listen to that, bitch?Whoa it's me
Baby this is tragic
Cause we had it, we was magic

I was flyin', now I'm crashin'
This is bad, real bad, Michael Jackson
Now I'm mad, real mad, Joe Jackson
You should leave your boyfriend now, I ask him

So I gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
Oh will you bring a better future than I had in the past
Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again
Whoaa, whoaaaI'll admit it, I was scared to answer loves call
Whoaa, whoaaaAnd if it hits better make it worth the fall

Won't see it coming when it happens
But when it happens you're gonna feel it, let me tell you now
See when love comes and knocks you down

coming around

i read an article in the star today... those letter to thelma thing... i came across a familiar dilemma... i read...

very similar to my side of story.. i repeat.. similar....

i read what kind of conclusion that thema gave... i have mix feelings over her response... i agree and disagree to a point but then as many would say... to seek help.. seek it with open mind and open heart.. be willing to change....

i never would imagine i'll be in this situation.... but i do believe that i am jest.

break of the dawn, and everything is gone
roses r beautifull with thorns, but no fight is worth without being tired and worn
pound to pound, i believe i'll be last man standing on the ground
as tough as it may sound, i believe the world is round
what goes around comes around,
my determination and confidence is something u have yet to found, be prepared to scream and to be drown
cause jest is coming around.

wake up morning

woke up 8 in the morning today... though i slept real late last night.. somehow i always wake up at around 8am....

i was told once "it would be great if u and him can combine together". please, it might work at this moment.. might but i beg to differ...

at 32 i can already do much greater things... i don need his qualities to outshone others... its just downright pathetic to combine... it's just wrong

i recall a conversation between me and a customer yesterday during the promotion with my colleague TT. She mention, u seems to be more serious and aggressive compare to your colleague. Lol. she conclude, i can see great potential in u guys.. young and aggressive.. at that moment.. i look at TT, smile and nod my head...

let's be great and successful i told myself... i knew.. i'm only few steps away....

april 19th

what a tiring day.... i totally mistaken that today is 18th of april and that i have an important date with triozen to do a full day promotion for her and i have appointments with other friends as well as signing up to attend a full lecturer....

crap....

wake up at 7am.. get all ready... my mom told me today is chor 1.. so she prepare vege thing for me... and how silly i am.. it suppose to be next saturday and not this saturday... not that i hate vege or anything... anyway class was boring as usual.. honestly.. i don like indian lecturer.. especially lecturer that teaches MBA... they always they r some sort of marketing or business genius... i don even agree half of what he says... somehow i have a feeling.. he just like to brag...

this particular class is not making me any smarter.. i feel dumb to even listen to him "yap"

i left early to go to the promotion which both of my colleague are handling... it was a busy promotion... i however was pump up for the promotion.. i'm proud to say the momentum that i bring help my customer earn a lotttttttttt of money... but then i don do this alone.. i do this with the help of TBE's men as well.. all did an excellent job... we go the deal that we want and customer got the satisfaction they need... another money well earn....

went to see my cousin after the whole promotion thing.. attended a trial dance class.. lol.. i realize i'm so not into dancing as i dance like crap but it was all good fun.. we end up having dinner together in SS2... i forgot the name of the restaurant but man.. do they offer delicious noodles.. lol

as i thought of wrapping up the day... i got an invitation by a friend to go yum char.. i never really into all this yum char thing... but since it's saturday night and i got nothing to do i decided to go....

i however did a pretty good job today... i didn't mention anythng about her at all for the whole day... it was hard but hey... got to stiffen up the upper lip.. as i reach the "meeting yum char" place... i saw this girl walking past me.. i was like.. cute looking! lol.. and to my surprise she was actually my friend's friend that happen to sit beside me.. Haha!! we talked.. as we talked i smell something familiar... ck into u fragrance... i knew i remembe that smell... she flirted, i can't deny her flirt was something and would have to agree that i would had buy it but... u just deal with the wrong guy... it all look familiar and i knew.. she is just playing her cards in this game... but hey there's no need to get angry or dislike these type of people.. just play along...

i was told once... relationship is a game that u should know how to play.. i used to reply, don't destroy the image of a beautiful relationship and relate it to "game". how naive i am...

whole thing the meeting was cut short however as i'm getting sleepy....

the day was long and tiring....................

cheers my mates.....

tired....

so tired... so damn tired....

is all good though... have been following a case for near 6 months now, and finally able to close the sales... mix feeling to say the least...

i was happy the sales was close, was a bit mad beecause i din get to earn the figure i thought it would be... worst of... lol... she was not there to celebrate it with me...

anyway.. let's talk about other things...

on work already have much headache, got home parents give more headache...honestly.. this is getting into me... how many times must i say.. clarity is power.. if u don't understand u ask.. don't guess...

has human go so backward that they r so lazy to ask nowadays?? this is absurd...

was thinking of a product name or a catch-phrase for one of the product that me and AM is about to launch... i finally came up with this name.. the cinderella effect

it's like with the product, once apply u will be like cinderella... yea.. the cinderella effect... i think it sounds cute and cool at the sama time...

:)

april 17

i smile as i look at this blog... so many things runs through my mind as what will be my first blog.. let's just say.. welcome

as day goes by, there'll be more coming in... by the way.. i'm jest aka despair23

as jest is define

J: Lives life for fun.
E: Loves to cuddle with their lover.
S: Easy to fall in love with.
T: A sweet heart

sounds a bit gay.. lol...

cheers for the moment

to begin with.. 090416

it's a little thought for my friend - despair23, am not sure whether what woulld my friend thinks bout this, let's see.. :)