blow it off

totally blow it off the water

can't be any happier

with a total of 19 equipments sold in the month of march... could i asked for more

of course i can asked for more~!!

:)

beauty secret

for anyone that follows my blog or read it once in a while.. here's a few remedy for ladies out there..

toner is a product that can help close open pores temporary so apply it often, wash your face once in awhile with cold water because it tighten pores and at the same time brigthen up your face... yes all those radiance that u need.. cold treatment helps

many asked about scar

there r 4 type of scar out there and boy acne scar is very hard to cure

even best dermatologist said... no product can help, it assist in a mild way but is definetely not the money u want to spend for that kind of result u want to see....

share more on my next blog

development

watched how u train dragon in 3D... my first

i cannot say its an awesome movie for i have seen better.. it is however not a bad movie... it's a movie worth watching

what makes me enjoy the movie much more despite it being my first 3D movie is the company... a great company while watching the movie.. that cap a perfect evening for me

i have been reading a few articles as of late and also listening to some songs... now, let me get this straight.. i'm no fan of j-pop or k-pop... i dislike the fact that i don even know what the hell they r singing... however i start listening to this korean guy's song... which goes by the name se7en... again not the best song u get out there but it's worth listening if u r sick and tired of wondergirls, rain or the super juniors....

went to a shop ealier this evening, to get some facial product with P

this is what i notice, the guy's product knowledge is weak... like really weak... despite him looking professional, he doesn't even seems professional... and while listening to him, remind me of this... an individual who lack of product knowledge definetely fail to sell.. and oh, this guy definetely doesn't know how to sell... he merely explain which he did poorly (like how can an explanation be so bad, god knows)... i don't know how much is he getting his salary... if he is getting around even 2,500... that's already too much...

y it's too much?? because he is not a sales generator, the best i c him doing is merely explain and looking after the shop...

again, there's 3 of them in there.. maybe he is the worst.. i don't know...

speaking of acne, this is what i found... and he should have this knowledge before hand

for comedo (whitehead or blackhead) use salicylic acid
papulo pustular use benzoyl peroxide

seriouly...

i read an article earlier again.. author spoke about wanting to step out of the circle or the box... while the other article which the author spoke wrote is about getting hold of her life

this is my take.. whatever u r doing, be it u r working for someone or someone is working for u.. be it a low paying job or a stressful job.. take it as your career and not just a job... u will be amazed on how far u can go just by thinking that way... if u have indulge yourself in a company or in that industry for a year while knowing nothing much about the industry.. then it means u r only treating it as a job and u ain't going far with this

don't give excuses that u r stuck in the office, u r an introvert or that u r "like that"

i agree with chan fung of fm 988 when he mention one day... " u r 20, not old not young... but to say u like this because u like this.. either u r stupid or u have not grown up because grown up people won't say they like this because they like this.. there is a reason to it"

and i agree

oh trust me, i have seen many people who r still that way

human development is important and one should always constantly try to develop themselves

i had my down moment and i don't deny that... also some pretty crappy moment as well.. but i believe u should always able to stand back up.... if u r not sure what u should do, just do something for the sake of develeping yourself.. else u will only think and stay stagnant.. at least by the end of something u already learn something....

till then

support

no love can last a lifetime
for a lifetime is never enough
year past by too soon
it will all only be a blury memory
waiting and devasting
any days too long... i know i have make it past because of your support

plant and zombie

have u ever play this game??

i'm never an avid gamer myself and i don't play lots of games

be it in facebook or anywhere

this game was introduce to me by someone special

although the game is a no brainer but i have played it for a very long time now

everytime when i play this game, it reminds me how how it was introduce to me

it holds a lot of memory, sweet one of course

how many times have u walked past something and it makes u remember something

not many people has the ability to leave their presence in me..

and she leave it deep

i could understand when someone say really deep presence

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it has all been a dream, a wish, a fantasy

a ride that all seems too crazy

it makes me strong and faithful for it's all a new beginning

a hand holds together that gives life its meaning

that leaves your heart goes beating

a reason for living

just like how brigthly the star is shinning

u r just a devil with an angelic smile

with many times makes me feel wow

tears of joy at times roll down

u r the melody of the perfect sound

there are times when it is a war between us at night

while at times it's all angel whispering to me good night

giving each others comfort even when ligthing strikes

time is always running tight

can't even change it from wrong to right

only u can stop the rain tonight

and change everything from black to white

giving me strength to fight

and make my world ever so bright

you are that 1000 reason to be sad

sigh

a walk into the path that is only lit with by the moonlight

heavy heart and i cannot control this plight

without touch, without sight

feeling down, feeling tight

lover to friend

flames to dust

why must all good things come to an end

stupid

speaking of being a fool.... crap

reason

i know there's something behind...

there's a reason for everything, not excuse for everything

crap

oh and i hate all this additional classes with additional assignments...

crap

*sulking momentary in class*

a small little note

when the rain is blowing near
i can offer u grow old with embrace and feel the warmth
i can hold u for a minute
i know u have not make your mind yet
i know from the moment that we met
there is no doubt where u belong
i go hungry i go blind
i go cold and down the avenue
there is nothing i want to do
the song is raging over the road
down the highway of sadness
the wind is changing
let the dreams come true

interesting

when she is mad u just cant get away rom the wrath, oh trust me
yes there's fair share of difference
and many times i got drove up the wall
and being stab to death
also many times drove me crazy
and make me shake my head a lot

as interesting as it is

i just think she is special in her very own way, a way only i can c it

conversation

i had this small conversation with a married friend earlier today

the conversation goes like this, base on relationship

me : so tell me, how's married life
him : i enjoy it a lot
me : any particular changes on your life??
him : no, i enjoy it a lot.. u c bro... (he likes calling me that, not really sure why) u need to know how to choose a girl.. she has to be wife material.. no need pretty but then don' too ugly... no need to be young, don't too old as sometimes young girl tend to be immature...
me : i couldn't agree more, i don't think look r that important, i think its respect and also communicating r important
him : it's also about respect la bro, end of the day u want to marry a wife material not just a gf material... if a girl don respect your feeling it's pointless... u know one thing that makes me like my wife so much?
me : what
him : i don have to worry or stress about anything.. it's very comfortable with her.. my previous ex although is pretty gives me plenty of headache when with her... arguments a lot, never really respect me.. just plain headache...
me : work already lots of headache eh
Him : ya la~!!
Me : haha~!! maybe her current husband like headache but then.. i guess every ppl r different
Him : won't different too much de la, but i don think i have the energy or power to entertain or stand her
Me : HAHA~!!

some women believe look is all it matters.. i agree to just a certain degree

actually i agree very much on what he say but sometimes, again it's easier to be said than done...

after i finish my class today, i went to pick up my loan equipment for next week out station trip... i then stop by 1 U to walk.. yes!! u're right that i walked alone.. nothing to shout about or be happy at but i reckon someone is doing something at that hour, i decided to walked the mall and just do the things i wanted to do

i notice couples and also what other people r buying... 1 coupel particular caught my eye

now, before i continue i would like to stress that i don stalk.. i just enjoy observing because there's always something can learn from observing something

anyway this couple... definetely cute, not in terms of their look but by how they communicate... both probably in their mid 20's but i c them having a lot of fun together

i had my fair share of fun and i totally understand how relaxing it can be...

working environment is stress and i strongly believe nobody will disagree with this statement.. why would then after work want to have stresss... again, be it for whatever reason... in cantonese there's this saying

big thing become small thing and small thing become nothing...

not nothing become something and something become anything and anything become everything

again it depends of course

sometimes it's hard to be specific however i don intend on explaining much either

getting late 3am.. can't help but wondering what's happening on the other side.. but then again.. can i asked much?? one once said i never really think of her feelings.... seriously, have someone ever asked what i feel??

this i speak for majority guys out there... we don't speak doesn't mean we have nothing to say... there's a reason to it... and guys hate arguing.. worse come to worst we just use our fist to do the talking... thats cause we guys can't really stand stress because work place already enough stress... so any guys who idiot enough to bring stress afterwork... definetely deserve smack right across his face... he must be either too free that he don't work or just plain stupid...

this type of guys have a title to them... and they r called a faggot

oh trust me.. i have seen this type of guys.... getting all angry because of something small.. in my view small of course...

unless it involve money, parents, life, wife or gf...

guys don really argue about anything else.. not about food, where to go, what to eat, what movie to watch, or if u care about his feelings or not...

again guys who do argue about almost everything r called a faggot

not to be bias or discriminating.. but please act accordingly, i hate this type of fags

idiot that act smart or think they r hotshot... please

go fly kite

mba

oh, as MBA classes starts to pull up it socks, the level gave a sudden jump....

unfortunate for me that i did not put enough effort into my assignment thus having to resit my MBA paper.. good news is that i don have ot wait a year for it... bad news is... i need to resubmit my papers in less than 2 weeks...

all in all... i need to submit 2 defer paper... each fall on 9th of april and another one on 29th of april... while my current course paper is due on the 30th of april and one slightly after may... oh crap...

that's what i'm calling pressure... worst part is... the assignment is not even easy and without any guidance from the lecturer because according to them.. we're MBA student and we should handle it ourself..

ok, fair enough... so basically it's going to be a head cracking month of april for me....

submitted a near 3 weeks leave from the company just to deal with this assignments.. can u imagine that??

i just don't hope that this will delay my graduation...

by the way... i need tayo's help so much here... crap~

rose

colour on rose shows different meaning

such as a yellow rose means friendship while a red rose means romance

ever wonder what does blue rose stands for??

how about black rose

again... to me... this means something different

there's this story that i once read in the net... it speaks about a white unicorn by the name of blackrose that was riden by a lady... dress in black... a gypsy many says of her while some who seen her told many she is a witch... folktale continues to grew...

handsome prince came by.. discover her... blabla here and there... normally thats how story unfold itself

tragic story fall that resulted both the lady and the prince die, blackrose the unicorn left roaming the forest.. blabla here and there with the moral of the story

what i'm trying to pinpoint is... why do u think the white unicorn is called the blackrose

u think it's just a name??

despair23 is not just a name as of many other things too... each name comes with a purpose and a reason...

i spoke to a friend today while having dinner together.. many join in afterward... these monsters who taught they knew me.. to be frank... i don think they do..

to be more precise nobody actually know u better than u do yourself

this is my take.... from point A to point B, it doesn't matter how u go about it, so long as u reach there in the fastest time is the best....

many to say and shout

but i'm piss now n i just want to sleep

time for meditation audio to take over

there's two picture i'm uploading here today.. let's play a game.. what does this two pics tell u about??

i'm very sure each individual's answer differ from each...

definetely diff from mine....

shaking

mic check,

i don't free style cause my style ain't free..

shaking head in disbelief...

day 1

wake up with a swollen eye.. another hollow day

losing in a twirl... this all seems too familiar...

same time last year i'm here all broken down again...

crap..

many asked if i have enough sleep.. to be frank, how to sleep??

nto up to my gold standard today but it was not disappointing act... go to work and get my job done.. get each specific work done... got an invitation for a movie while others asked me to go to club... i shake my head disapproving such feat... u'll go ahead

It's true i probably lack the passion to do anything extra but rather i just feel tired

one of my staff resign today... spoke to him for quite a while to gather feedback... interesting feedback

he asked... u seems bz, do u invest hefty time on relationship thing?? i didn't answer much as i think there ain't much point to argue over with nor trying to defend anything... as i listen drew some criticism as well.... rather than defend i agree and listen.. this then suddenly struck me

one once said "can u for once agree and just listen?? not trying to defend or lays other blame"

it's so much easier to be said than done...

balloon

i had originally meant to make a scrap book for u to explain all my doubts and worries and why i feel this way

i hoped it to show me slowly falling for u, so this book could have a happy ending

the contect goes like this

1) reasons
2) lists
3) the beginning to the end
4) state of feelings
5) how it all began
6) April 15th
7) may 1st
8) christmas blues
9) christmas gifts
10) my imagination kills me
11) breakfasts and weekends
12)distances
13) Falling for u

my love has gone beyond my reach
i walk alone, on her favourite beach
her warmth, i no longer enjoy
not even with fantasy ploy
nor stroke again her silken hair
i reach out, but she is not there
i sleep alone, the bed is cold
oh, i hate this growing old

dusk is just an illision because the sun is either above the horizon or below it. and that means that day and night are linked in a way that few things are there cannot be one without the other yet they cannot exist at the same time. how would it feel i remember wondering to be always yet forever apart, a glimpse of eternity and in a flash it's gone.

i held her close once to me with my eye closed, wondering if anything in my life has ever been this perfect and knowing at the same time it didn't. it wasn't that long and it certainly wasn;t the kind of kiss u see in movies these days but it was wonderful in its own way and all i can remember about the moment is that when our lips touched and i knew the memory would last forever

the ocean has been singing to me and the song is that of our life together

somehow

sometimes i took out a carton of eggs from the fridge,

i look at it and think that maybe one day i'll crack the egg and a little baby chicken will fall out

i will wash him off and raise him indoor

and then.....

then i will have a friend

i'm not really sure how u r doing right now but i know i lost the right to know that

when i think of u and me and what we shared,

i know it's easy for someone to dismiss our time together as simply as a by product of night and day

a fling that in the long run would mean nothing

but when our eye meets

there's a click

believe me i'm not a romantic person

but still there's something there and i couldn't look away

meeting u has make life strange

our story has three parts

the beginning, middle and end

although this is usually how stories goes, unfolding itself

i still can't believe it that we did not end ours with forever

sometimes it has to get ugly before it gets pretty

people want pretty much the same thing, they wanted to be happy

most young people seems to think that those things lay somewhere in the future

while most elder people believe it lays in the past

two people fell

despite differences

something rare and beautiful was created

things like this happened only once and every minute spend has been seared in memory

nothing that's worthwile is ever easy

if our conversation was the lyrics, laugther was the music, making time spend together a melody.. that could replayed over and over without getting stale

a summer wind that blew through the trees... a striking emerald look...

all of a sudden shooting star went by, and all i could think was they they were listening to us somehow.....

flesh and blood

the heart is made of flesh and blood afterall.....

swear it again

please slow this down for me

and yes i'm afraid....

how many times were u been down and lost?? to put up a smiley face when u r feeling down inside

something to believe in

it started as a dream come true for me
slowly i learned of her beauty, gracefullness and also our differences

i remember this little conversation few weeks back

A: Do xxx still talk with SSS
B: i don think so and not as i know of, what SSS did is terrible
A: oh yeah, i agree... XXX must be angry
B: dissapointed to say the least. the guy however is uglier than XXX

pictures frozen in time, it become clearer
cause i want u and i feel u crawling underneath my skin
now i'm broken, i'm fading
nowhere to go, going out of my mind in endless circle

it's not about similarities
it's never about differences
nor is it about being the better one
nor it is also about fairness

rather

it gives me something to believe in

quote

sometimes choosing life is just choosing a more painful form of death

each other's forever

a glance of an eye as time slip past
ever beautiful day never seems to last
a blink of an eye as life slip past
gone are yesteryears and i'm left just an extra cast
where to find my dream that got stolen away
feeling empty, speechless i'm left with nothing to say

one once agree one day, one lifetime is never enough to love someone
really envy you who own each other's forever

a smile which hold a thousand stories
ever beautiful girl never seems to be able to please
a kiss which tell many fairy tale
one which however forever imprint that many years to come will hail
two flying dove, heading south to escape the winter cold
grip by despair, humble i'm sitting here with nothing to hold

story

few people walked past our life.. some leave imprints while others leave memories

whats the difference u asked

memory of the past is wilderness of horror

while imprints make u change of who u r

what i'm trying to say??

the latter did make a lot of changes in me.. i sigh in disbelief...

comment?

lie zi

accordance to the late lie zi

there's a legend to dragons

it goes like this, the further dragon travel away from china the more toes it will lost. In accordance to this, korea, Japan and China all uses dragon in their art and their toes can widely seen as follow:

1)Chinese dragons have 5 toes
2)Korean dragons have 4 toes
3)Japanese dragons have 3 toes

interesting??

late lie zi also did mention this phrase among many others

the path to true love never run smoothly

comment?

it's a wonderful dream
with the laugther and sadness
with the hurricane and rainbow
with the dance and the arguments
with the deep stare and the angry stare
with the pain that is not enough
it's never easy and the road is just going to be tough
its a joke that makes no laugh
who is there to stay
a game not many willing to play
it all started beautiful like the darling bud of may
followed with many sweet words being say
a feeling that at times make u lose your way
but just like the moonlight ray
it only lasted for that second day
what happen when the perfect smile was taken away
left with silent and frost bed i lay

standing by the roadside alone i walk
it has been a smile accompany me to talk
it's empty now like a haunted dock
being laugh and being mock
time ticks itself away on the clock

losing myself unaware of the time
a relationship grew better like a wine
sometimes however u got to take a bit of those lime
how long till it get fine
with u i hope i can have that prfect dine
but just like a start that fail to shine
dream that is not mine

break up, hook up, wake up, get up, build up, screw up, post up

people say i'm the laugh of the party
either sad or blue
just take a good look at my smile on my face
take a closer look u'll see the track of my tears
outside it's a masking
inside it's fading

up

hurt locker won the oscar last night

i watched the movie but din the movie to be boring and dull...

i then rewatched the movie up... my 4th time.

still as touching as ever... like really touching movie

i still think up would be a better winner than hurt locker....

makes my eye wet everytime i watched the movie

perfect smile

staring out in the rain with a heavy heart
its the end of the world in my mind
then your voice pull me back like a wake up call
i've been looking for the answer somewhere
i couldn't see it was right there
twice much as many stars in the sky
what's the like, what's the use if u're killing time
but it's fine just by looking in your eye

it's a sickening evening, with a heavy head and a heavy heart
the pounding i'm getting in my head is killing me...

it's all a with or without thing

oh... i have many things i wanted to share but grief is holding me back and i just don feel like writting or saying anything at this moment...

talked to a friend of mine today... we speak a lot.. and i mean a lot... telling me what is rigth what is wrong... OMG, stop it already... and in the midst of the conversation i hang him up.. he called back.. can u believe that??

of course i say sorry because the line cut off himself... and he go on and talk... and talk... and talk...

oh enough already... yelling inside of me... i'm really tired of listening to your stupid stories and what u think of certain agenda... frankly not only i don't care, it sound like rubbish to me

oh i receive some of my result from the MBA class. and i can tell u... how bad everyone in our class did... that add to the already gloomy day of mine

i can't say much because i knew i did not put enough effort into the exam and doing bad is totally my fault...

i remember i used to study pretty damn hard for my exam...

speaking of exam... i came to learned that one of my friend didn't do too well on her ACCA paper... she ought to study harder, in my opinion... if 3 hours everyday does not make the cut.. then i reckon cut all entertaiment and just study... for 5 hours everyday... u can make up for the entertainment later but don't drag these exam, it's a pain in the ass....

let me share this small poem with all

the sky is getting darker
being away doesn't seems like i'm being more free
the air doesn't seems to get any fresher
nothing is what it is to be
nobody is guilty of anything
just that each forget how to take a step back
the happiness all give to mr. silent
and u have taken away that perfect smile