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a little bit of this and that on relationship

i always find ppl who tend to give up easily on relationship to be weak

ppl who tend to take other party for granted by flirting outside or doing some hanky panky to be lack of respect

ppl who don enjoy the together time to be time wasting and stupid

u c, practically speaking... if u find a really really good girl.. like really really good girl or vice versa.... thats a keeper and practically speaking u should do your best to keep her... yea, i understand all the feelings involve and stuff but u enjoy being with that person then u should by all means u should try to keep it that way

u c, i always find this to be extrememly retard... A told me that A likes B a lot but they break up... B doesn't really want to be with A but A still loves B a lot... oh retard!! chase her back then if u wanted to be with B so much....

u c, it all depends on how much u want that thing... if u want it so much i strongly believe u will do whatever it takes to get that thing... but thats me though...

just don go around telling ppl who much u want that thing when u only say it..... or how much u miss it... don also tell me it won't work because nothing is impossible...

i wonder which school or parent taught u that everything r impossible... each teaching taught the same thing... as tony fernandez says... sky is the limit, dare to dream and nothing will be impossible... touch the sky if u can...

so those who like to say, no.. i can't.. it won't work... or is planning to beg their way into something... u can go fly kite... world doesn't go that way

and oh, in a relationship... please keep when u found a keeper or someone u really love..

till then

chelsea

chelsea oh chelsea.. u r one great dissapointment to say the least.. u ought to learn from the great Man Utd.. thats what u call great....u r trying really hard but still fall short... man~

stupid

they say u pay for your stupidity... how true~!

upset

u know.. i am at this point....~~~

merry christmas

happy holidays everyone

came across a new friend today... the more i talked to him.. the more i realize... man!! its a crazy world we living out there....

to many there's the white world and the black world

the white world is where ppl.. such as u and me earn our living through honest way while the black world is where people earn their living through.. erm.. basically the dark way and oh my, u just do not know the kind of big money they r making...

forget drugs, they have the capable of earning millions through many other different ways... if u include drugs... the sum is even crazier

i listened of course... not going to involve myself too much but it's nice to know how the dark world operates though... and just in case u thought these people r constantly living in fear... u r so wrong... they r living the best of their life...

wonder how rich young guys drives and expensive car, with an expensive watch and also a big house.. they have crazy way of doing it... i disagree on what they do but damn... these ass holes r good in making money

they of course not at all a bad person just that i want to acknowledge all people out there.. just becareful.. if things r too good too be true.. it's not true at all... be smart.. open your eyes and ears... people r not as simple as how u think they are... don be fool by their appearances...

seriously... i always say this

malaysia is what we call food heaven and a money making heaven.. know your way and u get the best out of this two world

till then

happy holidays and happy new year to all

crap

rope is slipping off,hands r glidding out
tears r rolling down, sweat r trickling down
i puff heavily and grind my teeth
my legs r haning in the air with nothing to support
spirit that burning fire red is now turning blue
standing on the edge, and i couldn't back off

just when u think u r tired, do know somewhere around the corner.. u have a company that is as equal tired as u do
just when u r about to give up, remember u r here for a reason.. nobody ever give up on u and neither should u give up on yourself

i know crap when u say u feel like crap...

no boundaries

u c, no human or people r as simple as u may thought they r... there's always more than just what u saw with your eye... human r complex and yes.. human r never simple...

never buy the i'm simple crap...

anyway let's do something diff today..

was sharing a small chat with someone when someone asked me... do u still remember your ex?? tricky question...

i asked back... do u??

he laughed...

u c... this is the point when i realize... regardless of whatever he will say next... will all be nice to listen or plain bullshit... the only one who gets to listen to the honest answer is between your brain and your heart....

sometimes.. just sometimes it speaks too loud, your best friend overheard it

this is my take... be it yes or no... it no longer matter because it's a past.. someone once told me.. past is very important because it shapes who u r at this moment.. couldn't i agree more?? i disagree.... it's the lesson u learned from the past that shape who u r... if no lesson were learned.. u r still the same u

and yes!! u r still the same u even before all the past that occur...

put it this way... look back and asked yourself.. how much have u changed over the past 10 years... on attitude and personality wise

there r certain things that don't change....

so regarding the statement of past shape who u r... seriously... i only buy partial of it... and besides whats so important of the past.... its the future that is important... and the solely reason we study history is to learn past mistakes...

back to my topic

i never c the point of asking... do u still miss or remember your ex?? it does not even matter.. and i don't waste much time or energy into thinking about it too much... it's past...

then it comes to the second topic

my other half... i got asked if we're hard getting along

now then... there's good times and bad times.. everyone will get a chance for that... i find communication not too hard, just that i think women r not easy to understand

this make me remember a word someone thrown at me couple of days earlier... "why u so hard to get along, while others r so easy"

i'm very sure there's an answer to it.. no, no.. there's a few answers to it... but if u were to asked me...

i would probably say yes

i really realy enjoy engaging an interesting conversation with other individual with some slap stick jokes of course but overall the conversation to me has to be interesting

u c, i have no interest in speaking about games, or listening on where u've been to.. i enjoy conversation which i could learned something or get something out of it...

i like soccer to a certain extend but u never c me going around talking about soccer... girls, u'll c me paying attention to ppl talking about girls because to be honest, i have little clue or knowledge abotu women and listening much does help me in understand women better.. however i don tend to have guy friends talking about women ina serious manner...

other than conversation which i can learned or get something out of it... i have completely no interest and have no clue on how to respond in a perfectly good order...

as say... just because i did not speak about it does not mean i do not know nor i'm not thinking about anything...

yes, yes, yes... everyone is diff... i know....

my mba is ending pretty soon... i don feel too excited about it... as a phrase goes, one life ends another starts...

someone asked me something the other day... how can someone tolerate ONS... what is wrong with them?? u c, this is my take.. there's no right or wrong answer in this world and we couldn't justify other's prespective wrong simply because.... it's different

it's their life and if they want to have fun it that way... by all means go ahead..

if someone else is reading this, i would like to add this comment for that special someone's eye

"a person go into a beauty saloon show and tell only one thing, and that very thing is to look good, nothing else.. not to check out their couch or their massage oil.. they want to look good. A person who goes into a furniture store show and tell he is looking or scouting for a particular product, not to check the girls out or to dance.

when an individual wants to look professional i say full steam ahead, ppl don't just plunge and take risk out of nowhere unless they got a good feeling about it.... don jump out if u don have that rush to do it... stick with what u're doing and full steam ahead... i'm so glad u r full steaming it.. i'm afraid i might forget about this after tonight but i know general masters will work towards your advantage more than the thesis one... paper is one thing, without experience, even a Ph. d is useless unless u r teaching"

life is always hard and we r born into this
take life by its neck and show life what u can do with it

story

heard of a 4 year old got drunk and break into neighbour's house to steal christmas gift??

mom say he is following how father's footstep who is in jail now

i can say... this is one problematic child

lost and found

ever had something which u thought were lost but u found it??
ever had something misplaced but u found it back again??
ever had something stolen but were return back again??

how about losing something and fight to get it back again...

i tasted few, experience less but have definetely understand many...

i really enjoy these few weeks with that special someone... how should i describe it... it feels good... we communicate well and we're getting along well.. i don have much to comment nor complain about...

i came by a blog today... i don really visit the blog before but i start to read about it today... then i came across this sentence.. i'm choosy about guys... to be prefectly honest with u all... anyone that tell me they r choosy with guys r girls.. r plain retard to say such wording... now, y would i say such... u c.. as choosy as u "self-proclaim" to be... i c your prefect choosen one to be quite lame to be honest... he is not all that handsome, tall, big muscular, smart or earn hell lots of money... he could somewhat if not worse that your average joe u saw out there

sure.. it's personal preferences.. but how can such ppl fit into your choosy bill?? u might as well stated.. only choosy to average joe... i reckon.. he possibly.. not even probably... possibly the guy at the right moment... yes, moment is important but what the heck?? is that how u define by choosy?? serious... i was so amazed when i saw that statement.. man, we're living in this crazy world....

just got recover from my fever over the long weekend... it sucks to be sick...

and oh yea.. speaking of choosy.. those guy that so proclaim how good they r to their gf, what in the world r u doing with u gf, or shouting at her?? i almost laugh when someone told me.. i love her a lot.. bullshit!! seriously, if u love her so much, what in the world r u doing with 2 gf?? have u ever c a country with 2 president or 2 prime minister?? have u ever c a football team field 2 goalkeepers?? if yes then i would rather fill it with 11 keepers.. so when u told me.. how much u "loved" did u seriously think ppl will not blog and laugh about u??

oh another thing which i would like to blog about to... if the never-to-the-point thing. many feel they r a direct person but fact is i realize... they r actually many idiots out there

do u know why some score 90 in their exams while some don't when they spend the same equal amount of time studying?? stupid?? hardly... problem lies on the fact u don't give the examinar answer they r looking for.. when they asked u A, u answer A not B, C, california or bangladesh cricket is fun to watch.

i began to realize how some ppl have the tendency of not answer the question... all the freaking time... and i'm thinking to myself.... man!! r u stupid or what...

funny

plant and zombie

have u guys played this game before?? u know.. i never really got tired of this game simply of how it was introduce to me

it's a sweet memory game with many great moments too...

there's a lot of history behind this game....

not many know how to treasure what they have or the so call other half till it's too late.. even when it's too late... not many seems willing to show they willing to get her back... the road ahead r always going to get rough... no, nobody expect it to be this tough but thats because of our lack of experience... we simply have not gone through have poo as lunch, figure of speech mine u

as TBE began to grew bigger, i've finally increase our staff strength.. i'm happy how the family is getting larger... lol, yea the wallet is however not getting any larger...

i don feel pretty well at the moment... i caught the flu bug... i'm glad someone already recover before i caught the flu bug... during a second interview today, i got asked a question... u seem confident with that particular statement

haha!! girl... if i don sound or look confidence, i will be the worst sales there is in the market... u c, ppl buy things base on physical and emotional need... either way its always the law of of attraction or i call it the ripple effect

when u c someone or meet someone, bringing with u is a positive energy, u will in one way or another influence the other party with the positive energy. however, a lot of ppl tend to have this negative energy around them...

anyway my point is, when u approach anything or everything with that positive energy, u will be surprise how it turns out...

u know, winning someone back is so much and i mean so much tougher especially that person already gave u up comparing to chasing someone... keeping a relationship going on is not any easier too...

let me tell u, i hate losing... when i want something i work really hard to get what i want.. i was frequenctly at the end of the joke when i was in high school... a fact which when i look back make me realize.. i no longer want that...

y a 25 year old is driving a nice car and living the luxury life... now, i don really care considering the fact he got a loaded dad or inherit millions upon millions from his uncle.. what i really care is... if he can be at the level.. i don c why i can't...

i especially hate ppl who rub in my face when what they have r from their family... i beleive in climbing the ladder and reach the very pinacle with your own hand... like lim goh tong or mahathir... these ppl literally take the country by storm on how they reach the very top

not that i really like the ferrari and all... it's just the fact of i hate losing... i want to be on top and not the middle or the low life

however i couldn't deny either that i actually love the life of fishing, owning my own orchard, house without tv and just living by the beach... some village life?? thats a stress free life... oh, i'm so looking forward to retirement... :p

2010

put on a show, i just want to let make it lost control
so come and fly with me, and make our great escape
just let it be, i'll take u away and make it our private getaway

thats one of the small poem that is running through my mind before i type this

anyway let me share a small story with u all

i had this friend who all the time self proclaim he is an awesome bf who knows everything about his girl and how great he is in handling relationship, studies and also work

so his relationship finally takes a hit... he speaks on how his ex doesn't want to get back with him..

that sometimes truth r cruel and it hurts... seriously, i've learned this long time back and i always tell this to myself

ok forget about lemon

this life gives u mud, then make a mud pie out of it
if life kicks dirt in your face then wipe it off and keep going

i always believe in oneself if u want to make something happen, u go out and make it happen... if things seems cruel to u then by all means bit the bullet and make it sweet...

he speaks how the ex is ignoring him and all... to be honest i c no action from his side at all~!!

it's like a sales came in and tell me.. "the economy is bad, i can't sell, nobody is buying"... seriously, take a stroll down sg wang, mid valley or pavillion.. and if nobody is there then i understand about the economy situation... but if ppl r buying and u can't sell then it's your problem...

my point is.. if u want something u don't sit there and wait for it... u go out, grab it by its throat and shout it loud, right at its face that u want it....

this is where and how my concept stands... so long as u did your very best, there's nothing stopping u from getting it...

somehow along the line, not many people able to see or understand this

put it all aside... next year thats 2010 mind u is ushering in... oh wow, some began to asked.. whats your goal for next year... rather that saying whats my goal.. i was thinking y not we do an evaluation this time round... we evaluate how much we have grown on 2009..

now let's c form my side

i enter myself into the MBA course which of all.. trust me... its not such a pretigious course.. MBA should be much tougher than what i am experiencing now... what i'm doing now seems like a stroll in the park... anyway apart from that, i'm doing more tutoring i've just visited the much anticipated hk exhibition while expand my working knowledge and also network...

relationship wise i would say i've grown fonder and deeper with the particular someone... ok, it's not alot but i don think it's any lesser and easier as what u think it is because i doubt anyone can make it on where i am...

many claim i'm getting a bit proud and cocky but seriously after looking and listening to some dude especially how they handle their relationship... i can handle no peanuts... peanut butter jam... yea, thats what they can handle... peanut butter jam.. i even heard this funny conversation, listen up.. u'll laugh your ass off...

this guy is chasing this girl but then is kinda in a way comment or complain that she never really dated someone and is probably inexperience in the whole dating game as well as spicing up the intimate life... u c this is again my take... if that is yoru concern then go out and find someone else...

ok, thats some 2009 year we have there...i can foresee 2010 will not get any easier but hell.. i'm here and i'm ready for it...

msg to some of my friends... life ain't getting easier and it will never be easy... i've learn it that life is hard... but nothing will be too hard so long as u put your mind into it... and that is us, human greatest asset... rather than always think other people's problem y not think how to improve one-self.... u think rich and successful ppl spend their time thinking other ppl's problem or envy someone else?? rather they put their thought into action

so i reckon if in 2010 u wanted to get that mba so much, go and get it
u wanted to try sky diving?? go ahead and do it
u wanted to do scuba?? go ahead and do it
u wanted to try drugs?? then u can bang your head on the wall for failling to notice what should be done and what shouldn't be done
be wise....

working class

oh yea, i'm very much belongs to the working class too... for i have to also work to live

oh, listen to this verse

we this working class people
running around with only chicken feed at the end of the month
we work like dogs
but still earns a bit
unfortunately we're not brave enough to rob a bank
we this working class people
r slave to money
happiness is not ours to share
suffering is ours to bear

haih

november 25

yes big guy will stand up against all odds....

oh wow... speaking off waking up early.. man~!! is the 3 hours so not enough.... seriously... since this morning of 7.30am till now which is 12am... i only have like less than 4 hours of sleep.. daily... that explain why i'm looking tired

but then i always feel sleeping is a waste of time although i really fancy a good sleep...i really do... i enjoy sleeping a lot... but sometimes.. i just don't have such previledges...

as i was circling mph bookstore today i found this book called... excellent way to answer tough interview questions... i flip through the pages and without a doubt.. the answers were excellent... but then if i were to filter ppl who came to interview and only choose those with "excellent" answers... i doubt 2 years will be enough to find such individual for a small company

just a day past my holiday and i'm looking forward for my second vacation... lol~~ no seriously... i am

my phone has not been stop ringing since 7.30am today...

i haven't told anyone and u probably read this first hand.... the holidays i had in thailand was the best~!! no phone ringing.. though there r a few here and there but it feels free....

first stop the red piano box... now let's c dear red-piano-box...... work your magic

i got a feedback today.... from my co-worker

this is what he said... sometimes u need to let them bang on the wall to let them learn, to let them fall so that they will able to stand, to take the risk and jump off the cliff so that they will learn to fly

this is my take... u go in as a team, as a unit... an example will be like in a soccer team.. going 10 men down will always be difficult to win... i don take reality risk... it's a bit too risky

off for now

thanks for the encouragement small girl..

:)

thats one nice and refreshing bangkok trip...

and i couldn't agree more that the movie perfect gateaway was nice... get rid of the suspense.. it's the story that caught me....

looking at the mirror.. gosh i realize how tired i am and old i'm getting.. lol... yea.. get it right... i think i'm looking real old...

3.30am... oh lord.. with a little more than 3 hours to sleep before i need to wake up... it's a little hard trying to sleep... now i understand why

no, i did not get woken up because of the thunder... although the rain did in a way help in getting me to sleep...

all in all i really enjoy the refreshing holiday.... i wish it could go longer but then... i can always go back.. now i understand why people spend lots of money on vacation... it feels good... holiday coming this friday.... but as said before... lol... i seems like a person who never get to have holiday...

starting to pile up my work and realize there's so many things to follow and catching up to do... why when i'm not around.. there tend to have so many problem....

but then it's always constant troubleshooting... enough said... time for action

i feel like i'm some sort of janitor at times... cleaning rubbish all the time... oh man~!!

yes.... DBKL do all the hardwork... and we all knew that

heidi montag

i'm not sure how many of u actually knew who heidi montag is... but she is by far one annoying chick who happen to also married one annoying husband... spencer pratt.. they r one annoying couple.. a couple that many would love to hate

as it goes... heidi montag who was invited to sing at the miss universe was caught lip synching.. ok.. so she can't sing live... which also make people hate her more...

however... i have to disagree on 1 thing... her songs r actually pretty good listening to.. just like paris histon's.. they don have exceptional god voice but their pop songs r nice listening to..

adam lambert however who own an exceptional voice happen to have i would say average songs... probably i have high expectation on him but his debut songs r dissapointing to say the least

just back from bangkok... an awesome trip i would say.. a trip that makes me drop a huge bomb in my wallet... oh yea... i didn't expect i would spend that much... crap~!!

the suit, the phone.. oh my... now it'll be months to cover the hole in my pocket.. oh well.. CNY is here... but then.. how much can CNY help either way... like 200 ringgit??

up

it's not always the value of a certain things that make it valuable but rather the memory that it holds...

i just watch the movie up and i can firmly say it's by far one of the best movie i have ever seen... it's one of those movie where u don't mind watching over and over again.....

tiger show??

thats one tiring hk trip.... my legs r tired and i have countless sleepless nights....

not much to share except that hk ppl r pretty rude to be honest... not that fun place to visit afterall.. things r expensive there.. at least to us malaysian

anyway i'll be off to thailand in a few days.. which i think will be much more interesting than hk.. during my trip to hk i mention to a friend of mine that i'll be heading to thailand.. he said something which makes me laugh

he said... remember to catch the tiger show

i was like.. tiger?? what tiger?? seriously... like is thailand famous for its tiger??

he replied... no no, tiger show... girls or transexual dancing.... i almost burst into laugther...

seriously.. it's Thai girl show.. not tiger show... it sound almost familiar but it's not tiger show.. u catch tiger show at the zoo...

even when i reach back here in kl.. i constantly listen to ppl mention about tiger show... i wonder.. will live girl show one day be call lion show?? finn girl show become finger show??

more to shout and share.. but it's too late as of now and there's more work to be done tom.. so till tom..

9 days

thats 1 happy 9 days that i have.... really happy...

now i'm off to hk... see u guys in a week time...

terima kasih

when the sea and sky is calm.. it provide me with the utmost peace of mind... it's peace and give me such enjoyable feeling.... touched by such wonderful sight and feeling... i usually bound to stay there for some time to enjoy such scenenary...

but when sea start to get rough and the sky starts to turn dark... it drives me crazy... up the wall at times...

who would stay under the rain and prefer listening to rough seas smashing against each other than a calm oceanic wave breaking the sand...

it has been a tiring week for me... heading towards november gives me mixture of feeling... on 1 hand there's this fun anticipation while another is just plain tiring... i had my feet put up at the couch... fuh~~ i feel nothing but relief... i think i need to go to foot reflex soon...

as i glance through my room... a dry bouquet of dry rose caught my eye... i gaze at it a few more time before i breath out heavy sigh... there's so many stories behind u i uttered softly.. small rain drops began to drop outside my window... i closed my eye and couldn't help but wonder... each and every item that lies today in my room.. has it's little own story to tell... yes, including the little bottle of lotion... the scent of it brings back so many stories...

i can just gather up all these stories and wrote a 60000 pages of novel...

sure sure.. there's out there drumming a lot of questions and also their honest, wonderful yet golden opinion.. i can just say.. until u r in the shoes... u don't even know whats going on...

oh... i want to rest so badly now... i foresee more problem to deal with tomorrow... but then whats life if there's no problem eh?? this is my take... when u meet with a problem be it whoever raise it against u... listen first then evaluate where the other party is coming from... not everyone raise concern for noting unless u r that certain individual...

anyway i want to express my gratitude to someone really special who did a great job on assisting me with tom presentation... i really appreciate the help so much and it was a well done job.. like really well done job despite her busy schedule... in an typical malaysian way of saying thanks.. terima kasih.

hemm....

ok...

i just ran through what i wrote earlier today and i found when i get really mad.. i tend to made a lot of typo... seriously make me look as if i cant spell.. anyway i should do some spell check...

oh darn.. who seriously care about spell check when u r ranting...

an article once say... a great man is consider gret when he finally able to fight of his own demon and his emotion.... i'm having a bit unbalance at the moment but i know to win u first have to win by subdue your emotion....

i know i know.. what is human without emotion... but u seriously think letting easy on emotion is a good thing?? no, its not.... of course i want to be direct to tell u when i don't like something or to express when i'm really liking it....

no, u can't especially when it comes to the point u don't like something....

y i have to subdue it?? because of a lot of things which i'm tired of explaining...

oh seriously... everyone will act and talk as if they care but all in all i can say.. only god above care....

peace out..

frustration

i'm drop dead frustrated at this moment.. of course i understand i could and have to handle my emotions more.. to a higher level.. to a better term..

of course, of course..

anyway i just want to make a yelling here that it's really annoying and it irritates me... i freaking hate that crap...

man.......

u know what go hand in hand?? stupidity and laziness.. these two couple normally will raise a kid named failure~!! from there.. they create a family which goes by the name.. piece of trash... the day, stupidity will work as an asshole while the mom names laziness will work as a dollar dollar walking piece of crap... the kid names failure will chek himself into the low life dirt university... these family combination... is all but a worthless piece of crap....

then it comes unfair and unbalance..

of this all.. can we seriously do anything?? of course we can~!!!

i always have this thought.. if someone give u a lemonade, u drink it for its rude to reject food.. it taste sour... bad in mouth... so what do u do?? u don't past the lemonade down... but what if the lemonade were constantly past down to u?? now.. what can u do??

take it like a man!!!

i always say this that no many people understand what i think or do for not many people even willing to want to see where i come from.... all expect me to c or understand... how about me?? oh like i'm god or something that i have to listen and tolerate while mine was less of a concern??

i have this story....

this guy and girl together.. when together guy don talk much and girl complain why he is so quiet... but when outside guy seems to talk a lot... don't u c girl that because of your constant nag the guy don't even want to say anything more when with u??

it;s ok because of this challenge i believe will make me stronger and learn life better... it's ok if life kick shit... sometimes u just have to grind it through.. trust me.. i ahve listen to many many worst shit before... but thats life...

but i know and have strong belief that sometimes u need to go through a little hell before u reach heaven... seriously.. i don take this a point to pull me down.. hurricane of shits?? u make sure u flood the whole world before u drown me...

till then.. i'm out..

never

check this out, in my entire sales experience, i have never experience calling supplier or customer to tell them.. i've reach safely home...

never...

to friend.. yes

but never customer or supplier... not even insurance agent do that..

karma, 1 two many

u can put wings on a pig and make it fly but u can't make it an eagle.....

a tiring day for me yet again... a satisfying but tiring day...

i don't feel well... though it have yet to affect my performance... i think i need a rest pretty soon... i don't forsee any rest around the corner any time soon....

as i completed my work, i sat by a corner to have a brief supper... i like to do this observation when i'm always alone doing my own thing... of course it sucks to have it by myself.. but like i got many options laying in front of me...

i saw a couple just a few tables away from me.. obviously this couple just have a fight... why would i say so?? i've been there... anyway i can c the shit face the girl is giving while is guy is trying hard to smile.... obviously behind every smile and face u c... there's always some great story behind...

during promotion today, i talked and also do a lot of role play with my new staff.... it is then when i sit back and evaluate

there r times i was trying hard to be someone i'm not... trying hard to change into someone or something which its not even me... i always teach this to my staff that when u r meeting customer... always come out from the presentation or meeting with answer or something new rather than questions... if u have questions or doubt then ask... clarity is power and always clarify when u don't understand for many times... with clarification u get to improve

i have a certain way or style when it comes to talk or deal with customer... i sit and look how my co-worker speak to a customer... which make him so seems likable... of course girls seems to buy his talk

to be serious.. his talk are at times full of crap.. his speeches r often fake, he could be laughing in front but he is actually only acting stupid...

i'm more straight forward, although i crap at times but i believe i'm more straight forward than he is... it's either yes or no to me, no maybe... it's always ok or not ok, not so-so.... and come to this.. i can't be as fake as he is.. if i don't like something i will say it and give reason why i say so...

but through a course of relationship.. i've learn.. thats not how it goes sometimes... sometimes u have to go a few mile because other party like certain things... and oh, don't even show your feelings too much to her.. angry, mad, or sad... it's a big no...

now, at this moment where i have the whole world for myself... rather going out to party.. which i don really like it that much... i think evaluation goes a long way..

when one day u no longer drop a tears for other party... this show the other party no longer important... let me share this small lyrics from a malay song to all... it goes like this

janganlah engkau menghancurkan segala
setelah lama kita mengharungi bersama
usah biarkan cinta yang suci
dilambung ombak karam dilarutan berduri

i always believe in karma........

holy is lord

when things seem dark and quiet... enjoy the silent act... silent bring nothing but calmness.... which i really want

i don feel well.. i think i'm going to get sick pretty soon... i'm tired and hungry... be it that i'm hungry, i don even feel like having dinner... oh, i just want to rest

i know i'm safe so long as lord above is looking down at me....

amen

october 21

i strongly beleive that karma exist... many people say the world is not fair.. and many times.. many hate what is going on

like i don't... but i know it's fair.... u could be eating or tasting bitter for now but as time goes on, u will taste sweetness... maybe during tasting the bitterness u will keep on thinking why only bitter and no sweet...

i know and beleive... sometimes u need to go through a little bit of hell before u reach heaven and nothing is perfect or rainbow and butterfly.. nobody is perfect... i don't think i am...

sometimes in life, what i came across is all about meeting expectation... i don't think i have been through a lot but during this course of few days to a few week... i realize and see a few different thing... how to be a better person...

i talked to a person today... he asked me... u deal with beauyu salon's owner every day u must understand women a lot... Hahah~!! i told him.. no, i don't... women r much more complicated than u think... beside i'm a businessman so i don't need to understand women much to talk to them.. i just need to share with them stories on money making and also how to run a successful business... i don't need to understand them... their interest is to make money and if my idea works.. we work together...

then he asked... how about your "gf"

i gave a small chuck... i reply.. thats y i say i don't understand them well.. i'm straight forward and at times when asked if i understand their hint... which could have few possibilities.. i at times tend to get their hint wrong

haha...

1 time too many

i finally found my three new staffs.. i'm so happy... a hard assemble squad but definetely it look strong to me.. working very hard toward july exhibition... i hope to have a strong 10 people by then..

i'm tuning up the band...

i found my office, after a near 1 year of hard work.. it finally pays... i'm so happy looking the way it is going at the moment... i'm very sure it will

apart from this all

your words make me shiver
sometimes life make more sense with a certain smile
those who always think too much
will never understand this
there r things which cannot be force
rather
do it when u r happy before it get hurts

bring it on

i speak about equality and its either u're wrong or u're right
i'm not trying to be scared
when the going gets rough
i'm not scared of nobody
when the going gets tough
but don't tell me u agree with me
when i saw u kicking dirt in my eye
it's cold
it's stupid
it's mean
it sometimes doesn't really matter
u just have to take it as it is...
just bring it

slow slow slow~!!

i really hate slow ppl moving and this pisses me off.. and because of such slow pace, i lose another customer.. oh plz~!! buckle up!!!

do i have to do everything by myself??

next

past 2 days have been really hectic for me.. there have been a lot of interview going on as well as meeting customers...

i just speak to one of my friend today telling me.. gosh, with so many things that is going on.. i'm tired mentally.. now, what makes it more tiring is that all these things that i'm doing, i'm building them from scratch.. a tiring job... its fun but its tiring...

anyway i have more to shout, just at this moment i'm too tired and sleepy... to shout out more on my next blog

off the ground

i'm holding on a rope got me ten feet off the ground
i'm hearing what u say but i just can't make a sound
tell me that u need me then u go and cut me down

go blue

i officially will stop playing the fantasy football thing instead i will focus on only going blue.. that's right... back on just supporting chelsea.... not really wanting to c any other football matches...

i find i lack the time and concentration to play it.... work and studies is taking its toll

i have a good friend from my mba class finally decided to transfer to uk to continue his studies while my few other course mate will stop and enroll to the states to further their MBA... many asked... MBA here in malaysia is just the warm up course

i definetely going to miss them much... though we only spend 2 full semester together but they r all great friend of mine...

9.10am now... oh, my eye is so heavy and i'm so tired.... to be exact... i slept at almost 6am yesterday and i remember waking up at 7.45 for a morning call... though tired... i have never been this happier....

i definetely agree with the statement doctors have the licence to kill... literally they can kill someone without going to jail... now there's another follow up statement to it... women r born to kill.. they can dress to kill and have also that killing look... oh yea, women r born to kill

as for my yesterday's story... it'll follow up after i take a good rest today... i need 1

peace out...

to all blues fan.... it's chelsea year~!!

oct 1

for some people who have no clue whats going on.. dont act as u do...

show support?? got so much energy and time.. focus on your work and crawl out from the hole la....

retard

september 30

3.37pm now... ok, what am i doing with blog at this time of time.... class do not start till 4.30.. and since i have finish my work by around 3.. i stop by a nearby cyber cafe to go online

i think it's great place... they have a/c there and u can go online... only thing i don really like is that it's very noisy... ppl screaming and swearing... aside from the smoking thing...

it's funny... i c ppl swearing over a silly online game... lol... they have a lot of free time playing game.. maybe they r having holiday or they r like me.. waiting for appointment...

there is this song sung by dan hill called sometimes when we touch.. i really like this song...

lol, the song accompany me to sleep many many of those sleepless night

last night was particular hard... i have a hard time sleeping... why u asked...

it's just how things unfold itself... i don have much complain nor a grand speech to it.. who am i to judge someone on what he/she say or do as i'm just beginning to see the real u...

of course i have trouble waking up this morning as i barely have sleep last night... call keep pouring in somewhat after 9am... it was so noisy, i turn it into silent mode... by the time i'm all ready, i realize.. crap~! there's 13 missed call..

whats up with it all..

just as i have finished with everything.. i'm beginning to feel the exhaustion... 2 night of no sleep is definetely no joke.. of course i have gone through a week of only few hours of sleep... prior of exam but this time... i'm just tired...

could be due to a lot of reason

i meet up with a supplier today, we shared a lot of information... by listening to her, makes me understand more on how other competitors operate

but the interesting is that she is from minnesota which is veyr close to winnipeg.. we laugh about our -54 winter... how hard it is to adjust to the warm KL weather... Haha~ good times...

as i was finishing the whole meeting and about to leave... i meet a familiar faces...

as time is drawing close, i will tell this story on my next blog...

till then.

cheers and live happily.. it's our life and we should take command of it... u only live once and there's noway u should lead a crappy life... it's now or never, we're not going to live forever... sometimes life tend to kick us down but thats life.. to give us some bitter pill everyr\ now and then to tell us we r alive.. i came across this quote... if we all live happily we will all be under the gravestone by now.... i couldn't have agree more

my two cents

feeling

i'm beyond tired... thanks to someone, i need to stay up until 4 in the morning to pick him up... and also thanks to someone, i have to wake up as early as 8 to deliver things...

now i'm beyond exhaustion... oh, where's that familar comfort...

it's 6.15pm here... i don even feel like having dinner... i just want to crash and have a good rest

i took a quiz yesterday... send by a good friend of mine... oh, the result was apparently very interesting.. lol especially the rose thing

check this out.... when u meet your gf... will u give her 20 of red roses, white roses or combination.... the answer was interesting

if a guy give 20 red roses meaning he is willing to give it all
if the guy give 20 white roses meaning he expect more from the girl
if it's 10 white rose and 10 red rose.. he expect a fair amount of love giving...

interesting enough.... what colour of roses will u give??

it's raining heavily now... oh, got to be careful... the road is slippery...

there have been many disagreement before as well as agreement... we used to agree on a many common ground but also argue and disagree over many other grounds as well...

a friend told me a long story before he left to melbourne... i listen... another friend then drop me a quote... this is what he say

to win the actor oscar award, u first need to learn how to act.

a short yet simple quote but in it has deep meaning to it. what have u derive from it??

let me share with u a story.... couple months back i make a decision.. so important and vital, it changes the way i'm going to live my life... i thought to myself.. oh, this is it.. i'm done with it and i'm very glad with the decision...

anticipation was there although i'm pretty nervous to be honest... but nevertheless... i began to notice how others do it and how i want to do mine... i have mine plan out... it's going to be different and definetely memorable... to say the least, i couldn't wait... although i knew the burden will get heavy but i couldn't wait

one thing lead to another... hiccups which visit every now and then.. gave me a visit... i did not do a good job on welcoming the hiccup.. so when it came... it rock the very foundation....

embarass?? no.... i tasted worst
hurt my ego?? no.. i tasted worst too
scared?? no, surely i have been through worst
helpless?? nope.. i always believe impossible is nothing and nothing is impossible so long as u pt your will and heart into it

sad... yes, though i have been worst, this is just different

*sigh*

oh..... world is full of crap..

love without talking

din do much work today... i went by a lot of places...

i drop by at fullhouse cafe today... i went in and order a drink... fullhouse cafe was a memorable place for me... no, silly... nothing really big happen there before but what have occur there bring deep meaning to me... i remember i brought a shirt at that cafe before... it simply called.. lost and found

how many lost and found have u been through before... what have u lost that can't be found....

i then watch a re-run of the ugly truth...

there's a scene where the girl asked the boy.. "so who is that girl who make such impact in u"

a friend asked me today, how ife is treating u so far... i smirk... i din reply...

sometimes, there is a thing called love without talking

september 28

this is tough shit................

september 27

*day 01-day one went by with emptiness in it. day was torridly cold to start of with. i didn't do a good job today, i give myself 40 marks. fail. yes. i went to c my grandma today, also have dinner with her. actually i have something plan for tonight, somehow the plan did not work out. i'm going to have another swollen eye tomorrow.. Haha.... hemm..... i don know what tomorow will bring me. i'm beyond lost. yes i'm weak... hemmm..... one of those night.. oh wait, i forsee this night will continue for many nights to come... it's really tough... but i'm really exhausted... i put this at 30 marks, not even 40 for today...*

hem, had an interesting class today with only 10 people coming, i dont know where did others went... dinner was follow by a yum char session while watching football.. din get to watch much football, have not meet this friend for quite sometime and we exchange a lot of things... i listen and he listen.... we talked for a near 4 hours and its all about work... i guess i got nothing much to share except work... i wanted to talk so much on other things but i don think he wanted to listen nor does it matter too much to him... i hold back on that topic

i reached home and brush my teeth, as i jump into bed, i hold up my phone for a very very long time... there r many probably, questions, assumption,anticipation as well as hesitation.

hahaha... hemmm

i send a short msg... i roll on my bes for a long time, i couldn't sleep... i decided to blog

i came across a quote, before an actor to be awarded the best actor award he should learn how to act. before a person can run, he have to first learn to walk and at times fall

serenity prayers

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

all out of love

i have this song running through my mind....

let me share with u guys a little about love

it had me believe that tommorow is always brigther and always a day to look forward
sometimes it people got tired and forget the core competency of love

i talked to a person today.... that person said.. oh wow, how cool it is to be u...
Haha~!!
please... life to me is always unfair and hard... i enjoy but at the same time hate it as well...
work is stressful
love is complicated

yea, stay in the jungle u say...........

i remember the night when i have this arrangement in sunway hotel restaurant... the night where i tremble the most to say the least... each word that was utter, bring joyful tears to myself....

u think it's easy to undergo what i'm undergoing now??

actually i wanted to upload a powerpoint slide for u guys to c.. very unfortunate blogspot don allow me to... i even have this song i wanted to upload but then again.. i can't..

i'm going to put a dot for the moment tonight

more to write the next day..... i'm seriously exhausted and tired

haiya!!

i'm listening to this SHE song called always on my mind at this moment... i remember this is the very first SHE song that was introduce to me by a friend of mine at that time.. listening to it brings back many many memories... fun and happy one

i still have vivid images of it... i remember it used to be really cold back in winter time in canada... and while i am new there, i don't have many friends.. i resort to make a lot of really good and nice net friends... we have this daily YM chat where we chat throughout a few hours daily...

i know friends r important but when times really comes... how many really stand by... some called me a realist... but i believe friend only need a few... is more than enough.. few friends that will be there when u r at your lowest...

11.03 now.. so many more things to handle... i think i better continue and blog in a later hour... till my next blog... cya!

the apprentice

have u guys watch the show the apprentice? i was looking at it through youtube... task given every week is simple... organize the most successful event in a day or collect the highest fund in a given day

i agree when such quote was say.. in business, it's consider success on how much money u make at the shortest time, u want goodwill u go do charity

i couldn't have agree more

it's a horrendous day for me... it was... tutoring centre finally start operating.. oh my, the work is horrendous mounting... it's so not easy to manage one, not as easy as i thought it would be.. looking at the task, i'm bewilded... oh crap

then came TBE... so i was able to close a deal today which is a happy thing... at the same time i got few good contacts in between... everything seems to be doing well and fine until night came

i had many talks with a few too many individual... of which few of them did not end up well...

i always have this concept... u want an apple?? i'll give u an apple... so long as u have an apple and u did not die, sick or get in trouble with that apple.. u don't have to worry how i get that apple...

y ask so many question asked on that apple?? why never u asked why do u need an apple for..

by the way, i came across this exception interesting story...

A said to B stating A only have diploma while B have degree and u don't need degree to earn big money

i agree as seen in bill gates, donald trump and many more others...

but this statement is totally funny... like really funny... so u're going to tell this to your kids?? and not encourage him/her to study?? u c... if u can't get a degree then u don't come up with silly statement saying u don't need degree to earn more money...

people knew degree do not give u that cutting edge to earn more but it's a known fact that knowledge is important... life is a constant learning thing... furthermore a degree can move u up the ladder.. thats y ppl need MBA unless u r working by yourself... if u r working under someone... please, review that statement...

betul betul funny... by the way, bill gates were admitted to harvard, bush drop out from yale.. they r from ivy league school.. not funny college with funny degree... u want funny u go to clown schools where u learn how to be clown not by giving funny statement

i remember ack at those days when my result was not that great... my dad told me.. "son, u don't need good marks to earn money, but good marks show that u work hard on your studies and this is the trait u should have"

i used to believe in study smart, spotting questions and study what is needed... back in my college and first year university.. i never did great... it is then i began to study hard.. and understand that it is through hardwork goals achieved

when i start to work, i realized, apart from work hard... it's through working smart one gets further... i began to evaluate... why some people r at the position they r at while others r not... i began to read many articles and stories... i try to learn from successful bosses and not managers... i c at diff level, each share the same trait

i use to have a manager... he's around 40+ is i'm not wrong... seriously he got yell at and work like dog while driving a toyota wish whereby the boss although work like dog too, get to have holiday from japan to italy to spain.... at the same time he is driving this BMW 7 series...

i began to look and evaluate...

seriously... both r almost the same age.. i don't know about u but i certainly don't want to be that manager...

i got a statement tonight saying i am too money minded

i have live some pretty poor life, although i chose that path... i don't want to go back to that life...

u can't compare....

i have known few individual who work hard, don't earn much yet have to support family with huge sum of money every month... i also know individual who have to worry about their meal every day.... i also have seen people work like dog just to earn that extra 100 ringgit...

how can watermelon understand durian when one grew on ground while the later grew on tree.... never even expect they both to understand but at least know that each is different.... my belief, there's no right or wrong in this world but rather how u preceive as right or wrong... so long as nobody is hurt then it's all good

people keep telling me about their belief, what?? nobody in the end want to listen to my belief?? stating mine is so wrong... i didn't even say yours r wrong... call me straight but this individual keep telling me her ethics and belief... if u r so right, u already taught some really good children and not rebellious child...

my thinking could be a bit funny too but i very much know... business is business, personal is personal and that education is important... just because u have a PHD does not mean u can look down on others who doesn't and just because u don't have a PHD, it's because u don work hard enough....

seriously... for student or working life... work or study hard... there's a reason why some fail some past with flying colours, why some r rich while some r poor... just because u r lazy to evaluate does not mean u don't have such ability...

haven't u heard early birds gets the worm?? if it is to be it's up to me??

my rant

u think business world is easy?? it's the industry for the cunning... thats y i said.. i'm tired.. mentally... stating i never listen... what?? who then listen to me... and when nobody listen i rant it here... then say i write silly things.... oh other ppl can say silly things, can write silly things.. then when i have my rant, i have to eat them all up??

life all in all is hard, i know... so seriously, u inflict it upon me... i don really care...

september 21

oh.. what a raya festival i have... i din really celebrate it nor did i do anything out of ordinary... somehow along the line.. i get to go shopping.. oh yea.. shopping

it seems like once upon a time since the last time i go shopping... i was looking around shops and what they r offering.. it's window shopping... din buy myself anything.. tiring but nevertheless a very fun outing..

i also went to this skytrek thing (i'm not even sure if the spelling is correct).. ok, it's funny and silly that i went to this little adventure, yea.. laugh.. i however enjoy the whole outing..

a holiday that i truly enjoy... i never really get to rest or have much outing during weekends due to work and also studies.. thus to have such thing going on at this weekend.. really throw my stess away for a moment there...

as i was going for this shopping i notice how "rich" people shop and OMG, r they living the awesome life.... i told many times to many people money is really that important.. u need money to live like king.... and i will be damn if i don at least do my best to reach that pinacle

seriously, living poor is so pathetic... many seriously don agree with my athics but somehow there aren't much choices

i talked to a friend the other day and told him how much i wanted to finish my MBA, she replied, if u hate MBA so much, then how do u plan to do PHD? to be honest i do have the intention of doing a doctorate degree.. not that i hate my MBA but i prefer a research base program more..

i don't hate books, just that sometimes there r things which i don like reading.. for one, i don't prefer accounts... oh crap, speaking of MBA, i suppose to head down to their office to collect my result sheet as well as register for next class

crap!

truly a degree don't really prepare u for anything in the real world.... it however make u think more rational and able to work hard as an individual.... to look back at what i want to achieve, i realize i'm behind a few schedule.... i really need to make time count and make this life... a successful one

yes, i have my own definition of success... i also have my own definition of independent.... disagree with me as u may but i believe if u have your own hand, feet and brain then please... make good use of it

i hate people who come up to me, throw question or problem without a solution

or when a task is past over, nothing is achieve....

stupid........

it's one person's ability to troubleshoot a problem that make him success or rich... i hate everytime i meet people who r too lazy to use their brain.... honestly, nothing is really that hard if u put your brain and hardwork into it... nothing

one quote said, if u r not fast enough u r the food..

how true...

september 17

oh my god... finally i able to use the internet again... after like how many weeks of can't log into the net...

i'm beyond excited... no serious... no more visitting the cyber cafe... borrow this and that... oh u have no clue how happy i am..

day past... exam finally over.. the stress is over and now anxiety awaits... oh my.. the exam is seriously not that hard and if i have study harder.. i'm sure i could do it better...

nothing really much happen through out the whole week... have been really busy with work lately...

i couldn't be happier with the rate that i'm going right now.. i really enjoy what i'm doing and if things fall on how i want it to be... i'll be getting that dusun that i have yearn for in the near future

haha

what dusun u must be asking.. orchard to be precise.. yea yea, it's a direct translation but i have always wanted to have a fruit orchard.. many might not know but i remember... when i was at a younger age... me and my cousin visited this durian orchard.. oh my!! we have such a fun time picking up durians, there's a fishing pond over there too... it was so much fun... i know it's expensive to own 1 but i have always wanted my own fruit orchard.. or a strawberry farm.. that would be cool too..

time passes by... i'm finally in the second phase of my career... expanding and stabilizing.. as eagerly awaits... i'm setting my foot into the advertising industry... a totally new industry which i have little clue of whats going on... but nevertheless.. an industry which again i can let my creative side take control

i don really like rigidity and is never the follow the rules type of person.. work is work.. i know but i understand to not take the fun out from it... sometimes u need to have fun while doing work... i enjoy my flexibility and the fun in it.. :D

talked to a few friend last few days and realize.. oh crap, people r getting married... and it's happening right in front of me... i'm so happy for them..

many say too early, while some say too soon

this is what i think

nothing is too early or too soon... u know when its time

i also came across a quote yesterday... this is how it says

some dream of success while others wake up and work hard on it

this to say there's no short cut to success.. there's always sacrifice.. there's always a price to pay to be successful, it just depends what kind of price r we talking about..

a friend of me asked... "i really wanted to start my own business but the capital is too huge" i don really understand what she meant by huge but i know there's always penny lose pound gain.. no pound will be gain if no penny r lost... thats for sure

have been looking at some investment plan as of late... nothing interest me.. like literally nothing.. but check this out... this person introduce this funny plan to me... this is how it goes

u pay 4,500 for 5 years supposingly which come up to 22,500. u will get a return of around 24,000 so meaning by investing 22,500 u will get back 46,500 but in 25 years time... of course it's a better plan if u compare it with fix deposit but come on.. 25 years??

let's not say 25 years... i even think 15 years is too long

spare me the pain of saying it's more than 100% return...

this is always my take in whatever i'm doing... if it can give u a more than 100% return meaning that company alreayd make much more with your money... y make other people rich with your money??

sure, who don't want to earn more and be their own boss but what if business fail and end up being the losing end.... to be honest, i have seen people fall from grace and being at the wrong end but at the same time i have seen people getting really rich too... i always believe all business is the same.. the system could differ slightly but the core principle is the same

just like life

there's liability and asset, it's lowering liability and increase asset that one increase it's networth... its the same ball game.. investment and platform grow u, spending and leisure shrink u

time began to fly and i start to know what i want in life... no, not about living rich, or goals... but rather how i want to live my life when i grew older...

orchard does sound like an awesome life.... life seems too fast to me at the moment.. i want to go for some peace and slower life... and no, i'm not going back to working for someone.. my creativity, ideas, system and hardwork r copyright of jest

i don work for u and help u earn that money.. u want it u better start using your brain...

selfish??

i just know my asset.. i don study half dead and pay so much on my education so that other ppl can benefit from it... for this i could sound selfish and proud but i really hate show stopper wanna be... or hotshot wanna be when there's empty inside

as of late the world is getting a bit crazy... i c an acturial graduate work as insurance agent while some computer design thing go and be a teacher... stupid people getting rich and smart ppl work their ass off... oh the world is getting crazy day by day...

stupid ass

i really really hate talking to stupid people... like literally.. i hate talking to them... they always seems to not understand what does respect means and always seems to talk without using their brain.. yes!! their brain

their conversation is hollow, and their content r stupid...

ok so u do give good stimulating conversation at times but to me, when u gave a statement.. u have to be ready to back your statement up.. if u can't then please.. don't talk~!! u look down right stupid

i am not smart but hey... if the not smart me can think u r stupid then u definetely... stupid~!!

fuh~!! ok... enough of the rant

internet is seriously stupid... i have no clue as of why i can't get on to the internet these few days... how do i get on now?? yea.. cybercafe... in a unique way.. there is a need of cybercafe... yea..

work starting to pile up.. i meet up with few people during these last few days... i'm very glad with the opportunity that seems to be opening up to me...

there's a girl out there that told me the other day.. that i could probably be thinking too huge.. too large but i know it's through thinking big, one can grow big.. actually some would say.. earn so much in this life for what?? can't bring to next life...

leave for children??

well... to be honest... i'm more into wanting to leave a legacy... to build an empire... i don think it's that grand or special but i want to make use of my life... to fully ultilize resources and brain.. to wanting to do what i want to do... to be creative and if.. with god will... one day i will live without having need to trouble myself with the financial thing anymore...

lately i realize there r some people giving me this shit face... u know... seriously.. if u want to hate then u go ahead and hate... if u want to give shit face then u go ahead... i hate this but i don think i can do much... yea bear with it... i always tell myself..

thats y their education level is just like that... funny how sometimes people who tend to study a lot also act stupid... trap in your own world.. no wonder u don't know what's going on in the world..

september 06

it's the day of the time again where i drop my 2 cents..

it has been a tiring yet frustrating day.. stressful too.. words can't really describe much.. internet is down at the moment thus to check my mails and everythign, i have to subjected a nearby cyber cafe.. which is crappy.. the whole cyber cafe is full packed with little boys... screaming and yelling..

luckily yff is not on at the moment..

many things r going on and i just feel tired on saying it today.. will definetely say or share more on some other day..

life is a bitch and i can so feel how bitchy life can be...

i just want a quiet and peaceful life... at least for the moment..

sepet

i had my hair cut short the other day... i want something different... a better different start?? i don know if it will be for better or for worse.. god knows.. i don't

i just want a fresh start...

i'm very tired as of this moment... i'm tired of school, i'm tired of work... i'm tired

i want a getaway so much.. stress in work is so much different from when i was working someone.. should i say immense??

i feel so tired i don even have the energy to say anything or do anything.... i'm mentally tired..... i don like bitching around... but i just want a shoulder to put my head on

it's 4.36am now.. i'm so stress out.. i can't even sleep.. this brings me back to when i was in college... i just want to have a getaway and have a good laugh... i know i should approach my day with a smile but i'm simply too tired to smile

in god i trust

no.. forget about it.. u don really know whats going on...who knows.. let's c... nobody!!

it can be done, just that it's not easy juggle between relationship, work and studies.. everything is done for a reason... i'm getting tired of this..

signing off

one in one..

take this sinking boat and point it home
we still got time
raise your hopeful voice
we have a choice
falling slowly
and i can't go back
moves that take me and erase me
u have suffer enough and walk by yourself
do u know what's worth figthing for
and it's not worth dying for
does it takes your breath away and make u feel useless
does the pain weight out the price
when u're at the end of the road and lose the sense of control
and your thought have taken it's toll
when your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
when it's time to live and let die
your faith walks on broken glass
nothing fail to last and everything is in ruin

it's after all...

it's 10.45pm now.. i breath a small sigh... wall seems to be closing in.. things started to get a little heavy... i'm choking at my own air... heartbeat starts to beat slower... as i lay on the bed, holding tight of the pillow.. i picked myself up slowly to grasp more air... life is becoming acute..

analogy can't seems to be more precise to describe the least...

i always said, many wouldn't have understand why i do the thigns i do for many have not walk nor willing to see where i'm coming from.. i don't lead an excellent life... i am lucky but i have to work bare hand to build a lot of things by myself....

the world is so complicated, and there's so many words i wanted to say
i never understand complicated philosophy
what moment is precious to be remembered
happiness shouldn't have turn its back on us, it's too cruel
to write a love poem or sing a lovely melody
it's a sweet dream or beautiful nightmare
have we understand the story behind a smile or the story behind each tears

who am i to judge
on what u say or do
i'm only just beginning to see the real u
sometimes when we touch
the honesty is too much
yes, make us want to close our eyes and hide
where is that arm that bring comfort to us
who is there to hold
through insecurity, it's how everything surfice
we're just a being trap in lies
how r we going to brave through
when it'll break us to our knees

there's a quote

do not pray for an easy life, rather pray for the strength to endure a difficult one

i'm not having any easier life than any one of u out there too... we're all in the same boat...

relationship

in a relationship it always start with like/good impression.. then it move on to communicate/dates to then tolerance/understanding and then respect each other..

i never understand a lot of things... as i'm still on the verge of learning....

mathematics

little johnny was working on his math question... he stumble upon a hard question..... he work a few times, he couldn't get the answer

the easy way out, drop the pen.. close the book

the tough way out, grind it and work the solution out... in regards

there's flight and fight

don always say i try to take the easy way out... i always work to solve problem and not leave it... i don close the book and move to other subject... i finish my questions and then only i move on to the next subject... but i make sure all question r finished and done..

just another writer

i read this article...

when u found that special one.. ho wu know the person is the married type... will the other party willing to hold on u for the next 40-50 years....

it's not about u holding that person but rather that person holding on u....

marriage is more than just 2 people as 2 family will get involve also... but will 2 person go through riches and poorer, health and sickness together??

the article press on... it's 2 pair of hands that will withstand anything in front and to build things... nothing will come with only 1 pair of hand...

yes, when in a relationship... u can still fly with 1 wing but in marriage, nothing will take off with only 1 wing....

i'm just another writer trap in this wee hour, listening and wondering... why always me who have to solve stressful problems at this time?? yes, i'm a risk taker but i take risk base on statistics.. i don take risk if i know nothing about something.. those r called stupid...

i take risk base on favourable statistics readings...

base on that.... i never lose and i never fail.. maybe at times but thats rare...

so road in front should be pave else... it'll end up in mud hole... not everytime have to knock on wall only know what is right or wrong..

what is important what is not... one should know..... where or who is your importance

else, it's time to wake up...

september 3

there's a few singers which i personally like a lot and that i would love to see them perform live.. one of them is called tori amos while another one is faye wong... i especially like tori amos version of "total eclipse of my heart".. air supply did a good job with the song but i think i prefer tori's version....

amazing

have a wonderful merdeka countdown thing at envy club few days ago... i haven really have a chance to party that much... as much as everyone's favourite on the phuture.. i don really like it there... simply because it's too crowded... i don like their songs and i don dance.. i don really smoke or drink....

the one i went.. the envy club however was kinda my type... it's spacious... i have a comfortable chair to sit on... surrounded by a bunch of people that i know.... there's silly dice games and there's beer... oh and there's wii too... the music is not bad.. not too loud... that's something of my thing....

many would argue saying phuture have this good looking girls.. eye candy for many.. but seriously... although it's awesome to have good looking girls around but if u r not hitting on them nor they hitting on u... whats the whole point?? some however argue back saying.. we can dance there...

again... if a girl says she have a stressful day and want to dance her stress out.. i totally understand but if a guy come to me and say he want to dance his stress out.. i'll be like WTF?? u go to the bar to dance your ass?? y don't u join the dance class??

i really like enjoy get together thing... i enjoy more if there's stimulating conversation...

i remember when i was a kid, i always heard parents sit with their siblings and talk about past... ok, maybe they r past their prime but whats up with youngster talking about past?? y not sit down and talk something current or something that can benefit each other??

not everyone is me

i know..

my opinion

as day gets nearer... i can feel the stress getting into me... i hardly prepared for the upcoming exam and is very nervous about it... with tutoring classes going on, i know time is going against me... oh crap...

talked to an old friend today... we shared a lot of stories together.... oh wow.. time past by so quickly.. we have not seen each other for 3 years now.. i remember the day before i left i only had a drink with him.. man, time flies... it's only few months away before 2010 come and i'll be 26... Haha.... damn

i saw many friend the other night during the small gathering thing... bring back a lot of high school memories... i read a phrase before saying that the god envy us simply because we r immortal and that because nothing last... everything is beautiful

i enjoy my college life and also my teen life... growing up believing in ghost was the awesome part... studying in a foreign land was almost hard to forget...

my old friend told me.. y take things so hard and so serious... learn to satisfy easily and although it's a normal and not rich life... enjoy life... u don have to be bill gates to enjoy life...

i agree.... but i hate it everytime i c people of my age doing really awesome thing with cash in hand

money is such a devil.....

september 1

ok, here comes september... national day past by with no fireworks this time round... but all in all i have a wonderful national day party... i think i drank quite a few but i'm lucky enough the one vomitting is not me... no, it's not the doctor either despite me trying to make him drunk...

i'm so dead as of this moment as exam is coming closer and i need to study so badly... crap!! can't seems to able to get the words in my brain... no, not that i'm lazy.. ok u got me.. i'm lazy... it's really hard getting back into the study life after coming out to work..

seriousyly, i think study life is harder than working life... why would i say that?? now.. firstly... at least work give u money... secondly.. though study life is flexible, sometimes when u r not using your time wisely.. u'll find that u r wasting your time... thirdly... working create creativity, in study u can't do so... when u become creative with your answer.. your grade suffer...

so to conclude.. i think study life is harder... and man!! do i still have long way to go... like really long way... i enjoy education and believe that study is a life long thing... but at this moment i just want my studies to finish ASAP...

speaking of studies, i think i need to get my name check prior to the exam else i wouldn't be sitting it....

speaking of it makes me so nervous... damn....

ok... though i have good rest today, i think i'll head to bed now before tom start... ore studies to be done

August 27

oh... i have this in me i would really like to share it

i receive some interesting feedback yesterday... one that irk me...

i was criticise to the fact i'm not a capable person..

u c.. I for it all... pay for my own tuition fees for the last three education years in canada.. i work my ass off for scholarships and also work part time to get such fund.... on top of that.. i self fund my MBA and my own company... although i wreck my car, but i was paying 850 every month...

call me proud but if u r not near to paying this all by yourself... to what extend can u question my abiity??

i drive a crappy car and can't live a luxury life?? bring me a 25 year old who did what i did without parents help and live a luxury life... then i'll shut my mouth..

u question my ability.. y don't u question, y not many ppl can do what i do... seriously... no, no.. like seriously... what is with all this questioning?? so many ppl out there u don't question nor do u critic but u say it to my face??

u can clarify, u can ask... but what in the world is all the critic about??

calling me cocky and proud.. thats because i know what i have done... champion can be proud.. loser can't... i'm not a champion myself but i don't think what i did is anywhere near to the loser's title...

august 25

i received an email today.. an interesting email by an interesting professor...

ok.. here goes... he email us praising some but gives out negative comment a lot.. ok, we shall take criticism and feedback as a way to improve... but it's not like u r giving us our assignment paper back... how much can your criticism helps?? stating we do not hand in our assignment like any other masters do... we should study and work like how a master student should be...

seriously... i couldn't agree more... no offense but i feel education standard in malaysia is weak... let's take my master for example... which is by the way recognize by malaysia goverment... i feel my assignment although tough.. it's not master level tough... it feels like a second year university to me... like come on, what master's assignment can be done a day before hand out and still get a 68?? it should be much lower to be frank...

anyway... i'm another step closer of achieving my dream... i'm cooperating with a friend of mine to open a tutoring centre... revolving around my initial idea, i'm very sure it can do well... i have always wanted a tutoring centre and now i have my chance... oh, i'm so jumping with joy...

with the aesthetical industry in a hand and tutoring centre at another... i'm close on doing what i always wanted to do... now left one which i hope i can open my very own restaurant in the near future... just by thinking of this makes me excited...

:)

then it'll just be branching out...

while getting notes from a friend today, we sat to study and talked for a good 5 hours...

among the topic that we talked is about business... he gave me insight regarding forex.. i now gain lot more from what he say however i don think it's time for me to dip myself into the shares or forex just yet.... we continue our conversation...

we shared ideas, lots of ideas....

i always think an employee r always at the losing end... why i say so... to be honest, do u feel 3,000 a month do not yield u any saving because things r so expensive... put in savings or FD is making your money losing it's value.. at least an investment in property either grow your money or keep your money value...

i realize that malaysia is actually a very good hub or platform to earn money... it's just how we go by around it...

all in all earning money is 1 thing... what is all the money in the world without personality and love ones... there's no such thing as financial freedom in the world... but rather being in a really comfortable stage...

i am a very ambitious individual... i find that life lose its meaning if u don have goals...

i used to read this article back in the university... this is what it says, have goals in life, if u look back at your life and realize u did not achieve any goals, u might as well not live because u have just undergo a ride of failure....

some ppl say don look at how far more u have to go rather look how far u have come... each individual is a success in its own way... i coudn't agree more but truely... is that it??

some ppl say... at least u completed university and have a degree while some say at least u have a good job... so getting degree is the best achievement?? it's not even a doctorate.. life is more than just living it... u really need to live it

unfortunately in this society, to truly live life, u need some greens... as say, no money no talk...

next year i will be 26.. my family is slowly passing the whole baton to me.. with me also building my own family.... i truly feel the tension that is breathing under my neck..

more to go, more to learn.... till then....

yFF

I called ity seoul speshow, although i somehow changed the name to dolce seoul.. anyway... i wanted to make a small statement here

as of current, i'm playing this yahoo fantasy football.. nervous weekend for me.. for days some ppl have been giving me suggestion and i'm proud to say.. with rooney and givet.. I told u so~!!

and yea.. with 1.33 for myhill.. by far one hell of a bargain.. and oh, yea this blogspot so called written by an expert.. my oh my, where r u?? u have a great insight.. but not exception.. i don think u know how to value players and their form... u never seems to mention anything about home or away... the only mistake i make was with arshavin...

anyway.. as spetember nears... so is my exam... fuh~~ i'm sweating and is getting really nervous... i haven't have the time to really study it.. i want to get over this MBA so much.. the stress is taking its toll.. fuh~~

TBE have decided to take in an additional 13 units to boost itself as a major player in the beauty industry... i can't wait.. things seems to be picking up and going well.. i'm more than happy with its current state.. but because it's a B to B industry, it can only grow that big.. however, i'm more thab happy with the platform that i have created and build with my own hands... looking back at what TBE have achieved... i can't help but smile and give myself a high five...

Usain bolt says he is not too into breaking world records but rather interested in becoming a legend...

I had a discussion with my dad today and he said that he hope i can take over his business when time comes one day... I knew i would take over one day but i don't c that day come any sooner... i'm more content into building my own empire for i really want to have a taste of what building career means...

i know what job means, which is not something i want... taking over as a 2nd generation is also not something i want too.... i want my own legacy, my own company with my own vission, a company name which i came up myself....

well i'm happy TBE it's up there with the greats as of now and not at the lower end..

nothing much special or interesting happen today... except for the upcoming exam... oh crap.. speaking of it giving me the stress again... i better go study now.. it's expensive studying this MBA... i'm not allowing the money to go down the drain....

till then.. hola..

TBE birthday

just a mere few weeks ago, troubles seems to be meeting with its old friend.. MR.TBE

from shipment, to exclusivity to pricing to many more... a constant troubleshoot.. such trouble finally clear off.. i'm jumping up and down with glee now... :D

This will be one of the first few times where by my company will stock up... from beds to accessories to equipments.. oh, i'm so happy as of this moment.. our office will filled itself up to 20 pieces of equipment.

Today is TBE's birthday... August 20th

to strive forward in hitting our target... i strongly believe we're here to stay. this is my platform and a career i'm enjoying.

Happy birthday TBE~!

august 20

was shot down by sickness as of late... with fever bringing its friends along... crap~

i read my previous blogs... laughed along the way too.. there's a lot of sad story... lol.. i should start to write some happy stories

but sometimes... humans r funny.. now why would i say it's funny.. when u start to write something happy... some ppl might mistaken that u r cocky or that u r trying to show off...

i always believe.. u cannot change ones perception over u... some ppl might think of u as someone else while others might think otherwise.. what is real... to be honest... only u yourself know.. only your significant others know...

nobody think i can make it when i started with my TBE.. many feel it is too early, too soon... when i start to have vission and ambition to make it bigger.. people says it's too ambitious and that i don't have the time... to be honest, i don even know why at times i bother with all these thoughts.. like come on.. u don't even know what's going on, i understand your kindness to share your opinion but i have a firmer ground on my own ability and what i'm doing...

august 15 was a special day to me.. through august 15 to august 19.. apart from breakfast, we only share a movie and a dinner. ok, maybe it's a little demanding...

anyway, i have this rant i really want to rant it out...

say whatever u want but i am PROUD of what i'm doing and what i have done.. it irritates me when people act like piece of hot shot when they r not.. i don think i am an experience know it all SOB nor am i any super smart doctor.. but i don't think what i have gone through is that common... so for hotshot wanna be that want to throw words at me.. "know your role, and shut your mouth" talk when u have gone through half of what i have gone through...

talking smack, talking crap.. thats my rant..

due to what i have gone through i have my views on certain things... many do not agree on what i do but thats because u have not gone through what i have gone through... i seriously sometimes don't know what some people do the things they do too.. because not only i don't know what u have gone through but i don't know whats going on....

people like to judge me.. but when i jduge someone i'm consider an ass... i'm an open individual and is open on opion as well as feedback thrown at me.. if u can throw it at me, then take it when i throw it back at u...

unless u r dolce... yes, i'm bias but thats a different case all together

anyway... i have a small chat with a friend today... he talks about ethics on business... to sell things at a reasonable price, to give excellent service... i disagree.. yes, integrity is important in business but u don sell things because u think the price is reasonable.. u sell base on how much u can sell.. u think a honda civic selling at over 120K is reasonable?? that a house pricing at over 1 mil is reasonable?? that those facial product u r buying r reasonable?? do u even know their cost??

they sell base on how much they can sell... so again.. u judge me because of the pricing i'm selling?? what?? u must have bang your head hard on the wall..

i have a morning talk with a person today.. she told me.. u r a weird guy... u don't do what common guys do.. u don't like to talk about cars, u don't like computers nor do u like soccer... u don't like to read playboy magazine.. instead u like to think of business or play scrabble at home...

i know it's a little out of ordinary... sometimes maybe i only see it from my view that i fail to c it from others view but unless u explain to me, i will never really c it from a different view... it's possible i will try to stand on different ground but it takes time...

my opinion might come in as harsh but it's all because i have no understanding on why such event occur... i don get offended easily but it's best if something can be explain with total logic... answer such as because everyone is doing it is plain silly..

my rant for tonight... a night which is hard to sleep...

a short article

let's take the rocket and fly to the moon
where there's only both of us
let's stay so till it gets old
even when the sky falls, it's always only a small matter
when it's cold and wet outside, a glimpse of u seems like the sun finally came
everything seems fresh
so let willing to do crazy thing for u this life
but if one day i lose u
flower will stop to bloom
dusk and dawn will no longer the same
and life will all but like act in front of dummy and dolls

august 14

your presence still linger here, not leaving me alone
this pain too real, and there's too much that time cannot erase
i'm bound by the life u left behind
your face haunt my once pleasant dream
chasing sanity in me
following me like my childish fear

blog

blog were flooded with my inputs when u're not here.... blog were left abandon when u r here.. all this because i enjoy spending time with u and share my things with u and not the blog...

this is a disaster

i always hope u did not mess up the trick
some say we move too quick
and easily hit the brick
with u, is simple all it takes

my immortal

u're my immortal......

funny factor

i came across this article which i think is very interesting...

funny vs looks
winner: funny. hanging out with a cute looking adonis might be fun for the night but it's the average looking jokester who can hook the ladies for much longer

funny vs ambition
winner: ambition. tha bility to crack a jokes doesn't erase the need for the girl to imagine a life with u. and life without goals or ambition is not a life she wants to be part of.

funny vs wealth
winner: funny. There's always women out there who is looking for sme rich dude but there is also masses of independent women out there who hope for a guy to make them laugh in good times or bad times. Which worth more than a guy who is buying her happiness.

funny vs intellegence
winner: Tie. intellegence win her respect while humour win her heart.

funny vs maturity
winner: maturity. nobody likes a dude who crack jokes at the wrong time and at the wrong thing.

funny vs confidence
winner: Tie. Nobody likes a funny but no confidence man nor confidence but not funny man. Both is needed.

who say being prince charming is an overnight thing and easy thing to do.. i however believe.. it can be done...

POC

the story goes on... when happy meet happy.. it will always be happy, when sadness meet sadness.. it will always be sadness...

but what happen when happy meet sadness?? then it's either happy enter sadness world and be sad or sadness enter happy world and be happy

this apply to real life but unfortunately... nobody know who is the sadness and who is the happy... everyone think they r in the happy world...

ppl tend to be selfish at lots of time... sometimes, there r things that were done which can't be undone..

when a couple go different way... everytime when they meet back up... definetely there's going to be one which feel bad... it's either the guy or the girl... but one bound to feel bad..

problems came knocking on my door as of late... it keeps knocking and forcing itself to come in... but this is life... u will then get satisfaction by solving the problem... imagine if there's no problem.... how dull and boring life will be... life is a constant troubleshooting.. each have their own definition of paradise...

i have wanted to upload a song to be shared with many... very unfortunately, blogspot don't support mp3.. or maybe i m lacking knowledge in this field... technology or IT is never my thing...

let me reserve myself today.....

Haha.. this crap always happen to me and makes me feel down and lack of confidence... i may came by strong and confidence... with many times often show determination as well as strength to overcome adversity.. deep down, i'm also a human who also need some understanding and some care....

yes... we may have arguments here and there but she is always the one that acknowledge when i am in distress... always a shoulder for me to put my head on... being independent and strong is always a good thing... but there r nights or times when u need that shoulder...

many will say, there's always one outside... friends r there too...

i have always say.. when i wake up i c darkness in the world, but i also c beauty left in u girl.. and u let me know that everything is going to be alright, enough right up to the end of time...

i know there r things which can be replace, substitute...

a friend called and talk to me yesterday... he asked if everything is alright... i did not say much... he told me about his ex... how when they break up he go to bars almost everynight... it took him so long to get over her... he finally did, and along the way he meet someone... which he say makes him so happy....

the girl which broke up with him went on to get married....

he told me... "i agree that u say dating have to use heart and not brain... there's no logic, fairness nor conditioning... u will just know if she is the right one or not"

of course i will stand back up... stupid ass problem is not the thing that will bring me down to my knees... i've learn taking bitter pill the hard way... oh trust me, it's hard to swallow.. but it's ok.. if life give u lemon, u make lemonade out of it...

now.. if life give u -54 degree celcius... winter never going to be forever.. spring will come.. but for every fun summer, comes beautiful fall which lead to cold dark winter.. everything is a cycle.. there's up and down in everything... fittest survive the winter...

i clearly know what i want, what work means and what relationship means..

if it is to be, it's up to me.. bring the shit in.. piece of crap~!

august 13

i watch back a drama series that i have brought a year ago.... watching it back making me think and remember a lot of things

as i was watching it... i receive an unexpected call.. asking me how am i doing...

i know.. we're diff... the drama shows me a lot of things that i have forgot....

silent

what can i say more...

story

let me share a very sweet story to all...

Boy after goverment test UPSR were place in an unfamiliar school with lots of unfamiliar face. Boy was lucky enough to place in a class together with one of his good buddy from primary school. The first sight he got into the class, a young lady was sitting few tables away. She caught his eye.

The boy always wanted to talk to her but never knew how. He was shy. He want to get her attention but knew, he was nobody. Their first conversation took place when she said to him while he is passing books around the class "oh, u know my name?"

boy thought to himself.. OMG~!! wow~!! she talked to me?? inside he is jumping with glee but boy acted cool and walked away...

time goes by, years go by.. he keep this little secret crush with him.. nobody knew

by third year.. boy thought to himself, let's make girl remember him. He began doing over the top stunts.. trying his best to pull her attention.. it works in a way but thats all the boy got.. a mere attention.. boy still don dare to approach..

years go by... it's now the final year of the school... boy knew he is going overseas to further studies... he wanted to tell her so much how he feel but he never took the chance... he flew 23 hours away with regret in him...

all he had with him bringing to a lonely yet cold country is a picture of her.. boy pin the picture beside his computer... boy regret he did not tell her that he really really like her...

years past by......time flew and both boy and girl undertake their own life...

5 years later, they meet up.. both were attached.. few months down the road... when both relationship on the road, boy asked girl out for a drink and invited her for a one day out of city trip...

10 years of holding back, boy finally told girl how he felt for her... girl was not convince.. boy try his best and spark finally flew at april 15th.. april 20th came and it's one birthday, birthday boy wouldn't forget because he finally able to have his birthday celebrated with his highschool sweetheart. he never did previously.

along the road, they have few arguments here and there but there's also countless of sweet memories... with the taiping trip an unforgetabble one... paddling boat under the rain... 2 years past.. their argument heated up and were seperated for a while... boy tried his very best to get her back... he did...

may 1st became the special date for both of them... boy still remember how they hold hands and joke about silly things... where she likes to sit so that she can put her legs, what drinks she likes, which movie she prefer, what job she is looking for, what is her dilemma, what is her ideal vacation, why she is angry, what is her values and how she want things done.

despite knowing it all, boy sometimes tend to make mistake which make girl mad at him. eric lofholm once said "it was not only a lover but always a tender highschool sweetheart for love did not just develop overnight"

throughout it all.. boy enjoy his time being with girl... his dare to dream that finally came true...

many have laugh and many more will laugh, lot will hate and lot more will judge... what is a relationship if there is not something historical and special... sometimes, when u r in my shoes.. u will began to see things from a different view..