terima kasih

when the sea and sky is calm.. it provide me with the utmost peace of mind... it's peace and give me such enjoyable feeling.... touched by such wonderful sight and feeling... i usually bound to stay there for some time to enjoy such scenenary...

but when sea start to get rough and the sky starts to turn dark... it drives me crazy... up the wall at times...

who would stay under the rain and prefer listening to rough seas smashing against each other than a calm oceanic wave breaking the sand...

it has been a tiring week for me... heading towards november gives me mixture of feeling... on 1 hand there's this fun anticipation while another is just plain tiring... i had my feet put up at the couch... fuh~~ i feel nothing but relief... i think i need to go to foot reflex soon...

as i glance through my room... a dry bouquet of dry rose caught my eye... i gaze at it a few more time before i breath out heavy sigh... there's so many stories behind u i uttered softly.. small rain drops began to drop outside my window... i closed my eye and couldn't help but wonder... each and every item that lies today in my room.. has it's little own story to tell... yes, including the little bottle of lotion... the scent of it brings back so many stories...

i can just gather up all these stories and wrote a 60000 pages of novel...

sure sure.. there's out there drumming a lot of questions and also their honest, wonderful yet golden opinion.. i can just say.. until u r in the shoes... u don't even know whats going on...

oh... i want to rest so badly now... i foresee more problem to deal with tomorrow... but then whats life if there's no problem eh?? this is my take... when u meet with a problem be it whoever raise it against u... listen first then evaluate where the other party is coming from... not everyone raise concern for noting unless u r that certain individual...

anyway i want to express my gratitude to someone really special who did a great job on assisting me with tom presentation... i really appreciate the help so much and it was a well done job.. like really well done job despite her busy schedule... in an typical malaysian way of saying thanks.. terima kasih.

hemm....

ok...

i just ran through what i wrote earlier today and i found when i get really mad.. i tend to made a lot of typo... seriously make me look as if i cant spell.. anyway i should do some spell check...

oh darn.. who seriously care about spell check when u r ranting...

an article once say... a great man is consider gret when he finally able to fight of his own demon and his emotion.... i'm having a bit unbalance at the moment but i know to win u first have to win by subdue your emotion....

i know i know.. what is human without emotion... but u seriously think letting easy on emotion is a good thing?? no, its not.... of course i want to be direct to tell u when i don't like something or to express when i'm really liking it....

no, u can't especially when it comes to the point u don't like something....

y i have to subdue it?? because of a lot of things which i'm tired of explaining...

oh seriously... everyone will act and talk as if they care but all in all i can say.. only god above care....

peace out..

frustration

i'm drop dead frustrated at this moment.. of course i understand i could and have to handle my emotions more.. to a higher level.. to a better term..

of course, of course..

anyway i just want to make a yelling here that it's really annoying and it irritates me... i freaking hate that crap...

man.......

u know what go hand in hand?? stupidity and laziness.. these two couple normally will raise a kid named failure~!! from there.. they create a family which goes by the name.. piece of trash... the day, stupidity will work as an asshole while the mom names laziness will work as a dollar dollar walking piece of crap... the kid names failure will chek himself into the low life dirt university... these family combination... is all but a worthless piece of crap....

then it comes unfair and unbalance..

of this all.. can we seriously do anything?? of course we can~!!!

i always have this thought.. if someone give u a lemonade, u drink it for its rude to reject food.. it taste sour... bad in mouth... so what do u do?? u don't past the lemonade down... but what if the lemonade were constantly past down to u?? now.. what can u do??

take it like a man!!!

i always say this that no many people understand what i think or do for not many people even willing to want to see where i come from.... all expect me to c or understand... how about me?? oh like i'm god or something that i have to listen and tolerate while mine was less of a concern??

i have this story....

this guy and girl together.. when together guy don talk much and girl complain why he is so quiet... but when outside guy seems to talk a lot... don't u c girl that because of your constant nag the guy don't even want to say anything more when with u??

it;s ok because of this challenge i believe will make me stronger and learn life better... it's ok if life kick shit... sometimes u just have to grind it through.. trust me.. i ahve listen to many many worst shit before... but thats life...

but i know and have strong belief that sometimes u need to go through a little hell before u reach heaven... seriously.. i don take this a point to pull me down.. hurricane of shits?? u make sure u flood the whole world before u drown me...

till then.. i'm out..

never

check this out, in my entire sales experience, i have never experience calling supplier or customer to tell them.. i've reach safely home...

never...

to friend.. yes

but never customer or supplier... not even insurance agent do that..

karma, 1 two many

u can put wings on a pig and make it fly but u can't make it an eagle.....

a tiring day for me yet again... a satisfying but tiring day...

i don't feel well... though it have yet to affect my performance... i think i need a rest pretty soon... i don't forsee any rest around the corner any time soon....

as i completed my work, i sat by a corner to have a brief supper... i like to do this observation when i'm always alone doing my own thing... of course it sucks to have it by myself.. but like i got many options laying in front of me...

i saw a couple just a few tables away from me.. obviously this couple just have a fight... why would i say so?? i've been there... anyway i can c the shit face the girl is giving while is guy is trying hard to smile.... obviously behind every smile and face u c... there's always some great story behind...

during promotion today, i talked and also do a lot of role play with my new staff.... it is then when i sit back and evaluate

there r times i was trying hard to be someone i'm not... trying hard to change into someone or something which its not even me... i always teach this to my staff that when u r meeting customer... always come out from the presentation or meeting with answer or something new rather than questions... if u have questions or doubt then ask... clarity is power and always clarify when u don't understand for many times... with clarification u get to improve

i have a certain way or style when it comes to talk or deal with customer... i sit and look how my co-worker speak to a customer... which make him so seems likable... of course girls seems to buy his talk

to be serious.. his talk are at times full of crap.. his speeches r often fake, he could be laughing in front but he is actually only acting stupid...

i'm more straight forward, although i crap at times but i believe i'm more straight forward than he is... it's either yes or no to me, no maybe... it's always ok or not ok, not so-so.... and come to this.. i can't be as fake as he is.. if i don't like something i will say it and give reason why i say so...

but through a course of relationship.. i've learn.. thats not how it goes sometimes... sometimes u have to go a few mile because other party like certain things... and oh, don't even show your feelings too much to her.. angry, mad, or sad... it's a big no...

now, at this moment where i have the whole world for myself... rather going out to party.. which i don really like it that much... i think evaluation goes a long way..

when one day u no longer drop a tears for other party... this show the other party no longer important... let me share this small lyrics from a malay song to all... it goes like this

janganlah engkau menghancurkan segala
setelah lama kita mengharungi bersama
usah biarkan cinta yang suci
dilambung ombak karam dilarutan berduri

i always believe in karma........

holy is lord

when things seem dark and quiet... enjoy the silent act... silent bring nothing but calmness.... which i really want

i don feel well.. i think i'm going to get sick pretty soon... i'm tired and hungry... be it that i'm hungry, i don even feel like having dinner... oh, i just want to rest

i know i'm safe so long as lord above is looking down at me....

amen

october 21

i strongly beleive that karma exist... many people say the world is not fair.. and many times.. many hate what is going on

like i don't... but i know it's fair.... u could be eating or tasting bitter for now but as time goes on, u will taste sweetness... maybe during tasting the bitterness u will keep on thinking why only bitter and no sweet...

i know and beleive... sometimes u need to go through a little bit of hell before u reach heaven and nothing is perfect or rainbow and butterfly.. nobody is perfect... i don't think i am...

sometimes in life, what i came across is all about meeting expectation... i don't think i have been through a lot but during this course of few days to a few week... i realize and see a few different thing... how to be a better person...

i talked to a person today... he asked me... u deal with beauyu salon's owner every day u must understand women a lot... Hahah~!! i told him.. no, i don't... women r much more complicated than u think... beside i'm a businessman so i don't need to understand women much to talk to them.. i just need to share with them stories on money making and also how to run a successful business... i don't need to understand them... their interest is to make money and if my idea works.. we work together...

then he asked... how about your "gf"

i gave a small chuck... i reply.. thats y i say i don't understand them well.. i'm straight forward and at times when asked if i understand their hint... which could have few possibilities.. i at times tend to get their hint wrong

haha...

1 time too many

i finally found my three new staffs.. i'm so happy... a hard assemble squad but definetely it look strong to me.. working very hard toward july exhibition... i hope to have a strong 10 people by then..

i'm tuning up the band...

i found my office, after a near 1 year of hard work.. it finally pays... i'm so happy looking the way it is going at the moment... i'm very sure it will

apart from this all

your words make me shiver
sometimes life make more sense with a certain smile
those who always think too much
will never understand this
there r things which cannot be force
rather
do it when u r happy before it get hurts

bring it on

i speak about equality and its either u're wrong or u're right
i'm not trying to be scared
when the going gets rough
i'm not scared of nobody
when the going gets tough
but don't tell me u agree with me
when i saw u kicking dirt in my eye
it's cold
it's stupid
it's mean
it sometimes doesn't really matter
u just have to take it as it is...
just bring it

slow slow slow~!!

i really hate slow ppl moving and this pisses me off.. and because of such slow pace, i lose another customer.. oh plz~!! buckle up!!!

do i have to do everything by myself??

next

past 2 days have been really hectic for me.. there have been a lot of interview going on as well as meeting customers...

i just speak to one of my friend today telling me.. gosh, with so many things that is going on.. i'm tired mentally.. now, what makes it more tiring is that all these things that i'm doing, i'm building them from scratch.. a tiring job... its fun but its tiring...

anyway i have more to shout, just at this moment i'm too tired and sleepy... to shout out more on my next blog

off the ground

i'm holding on a rope got me ten feet off the ground
i'm hearing what u say but i just can't make a sound
tell me that u need me then u go and cut me down

go blue

i officially will stop playing the fantasy football thing instead i will focus on only going blue.. that's right... back on just supporting chelsea.... not really wanting to c any other football matches...

i find i lack the time and concentration to play it.... work and studies is taking its toll

i have a good friend from my mba class finally decided to transfer to uk to continue his studies while my few other course mate will stop and enroll to the states to further their MBA... many asked... MBA here in malaysia is just the warm up course

i definetely going to miss them much... though we only spend 2 full semester together but they r all great friend of mine...

9.10am now... oh, my eye is so heavy and i'm so tired.... to be exact... i slept at almost 6am yesterday and i remember waking up at 7.45 for a morning call... though tired... i have never been this happier....

i definetely agree with the statement doctors have the licence to kill... literally they can kill someone without going to jail... now there's another follow up statement to it... women r born to kill.. they can dress to kill and have also that killing look... oh yea, women r born to kill

as for my yesterday's story... it'll follow up after i take a good rest today... i need 1

peace out...

to all blues fan.... it's chelsea year~!!

oct 1

for some people who have no clue whats going on.. dont act as u do...

show support?? got so much energy and time.. focus on your work and crawl out from the hole la....

retard