tom

today marks a black star on my calender... it's what i consider as a sad day

lol.. many would probably guess what i'm about to write... give me a break... i am here pouring my feelings out...

i watched a very touching movie today... ironically the theme song for the movie is called nothing gonna stop now...

there's this line which i really like.... it goes something like this

let them see we're crazy
what do they know
put your arms around me
baby don't ever let go

the lyrics make me drop a tear or two...

i always say i hate all this emotion thing because it create misery to us all... and i try to be as emotionless as possible.... but i knew to one individual, that's one thing i can't hide

i had a dream and in that dream i see us growing old together...

i also saw this movie called inception and also shutter island...bot hof these movie... leonardo played as the lead actor

but both is similar whereby both of these character that he played.. he cant forgive himself for what he did to his wife....

rather than feeling remorse... i feel bad fr myself that i can't even do something right... and this eats me alive....

till here for today... more to be shared tom...

Starship-Nothing´s Gonna Stop Us Now

silly me

it is not what it suppose to be... have u ever wanted something but somehow unable to grasp your hand on it?? i'm very sure many had

how would u feel afterward?

i am the type of individual who hated this feeling so much.... i work really hard to get what i want...

somehow along the line.. u get dissapointed... what do we do after?? we pick ourself up for god sake....

i had a surprise plan weeks ago... and i just had a feeling... its going to be the very old silly me again....

confuse

more confuse than ever

Worm inside your face

viedo above shown how we are cleanse from worms... i ran some study about this and realize this is some type of scam... as said by many they uses roaches stomach to rub on individual's face... female roaches carried from 1-20 parasitic worms in them.

these worms are best known to many as nematode

sigh

everything went as normal today... tired.. have not sleep a lot for these past few days... lots of work to be done...

talk to a few friend today... would like to share some of the stories

one of my friend share with me a story about his relationship with this girl.. i'll name this girl Amy.. the guy is called tim

they have been a good couple all and all... have been together for nearly 3 years... they been through a lot as a couple too... but for the past couple of months.. they have been hammer with many arguments which lead them to drift apart

during these period of time... lots of guys came after Amy and eventually Amy fall for one of them and leaved Tim behind...

crying in front of me... Tim looks helpless.. i spoke to him stating that i understand how he feels... but in relationship.. this is how it goes... and eventually at times it ends like this

nobody want or even hope that this is how it ends.. but seriously... what can we do

i am not at least for now... believe in this bullshit called true love...

i don't

and i continue... screw her... bitches will always remain bitches.. but this is the world we live in.. world of bitches.. yes they r many more good women out there its just unfortunately she is not the one

maybe its the guys fault but i look at this in a more general term.. it could also be the girl's fault.. i don't know...

but as i say... as bad as it sound... the home wrecker is all smile right now while u r the one who is crying

dont asked bout' me... i am in a much worse scenario... where i bleed nobody see, why i bleed nobody will understand...

i sigh to myself... and utter "crap" in between....

exhibition

some ppl tell me that i coul dpossible be blinded by my ego for having the capable not many have

i however think it this way....

yes i not only am i happy but i am proud for having the capability to upsell and also sell my knowledge...

that to me hold no bar... i got many feedback during the exhibition... both bad and good...

i took the overall as a good news and i am very happy with the overall result... i think i did my best, that i have an excellent team to work with and that i rise above all challenges

again.. i don think i am all great and excellent but toe to toe... i don think i will fail to rise up...

i have heard many still talks about the world cup during the exhibition... which i don't really understand... i even overheard some guys from nearby booth that they purposely take a day off just to watch the world cup

seriously... r they even retard... do they not understand work is work?? so what it's 4 year once.. and beside... it's exhibtion.. seriously think it's stupid to not know how to prioritize work

we are of the most busy booth in the exhibition and thats because each individual put their heart and soul into it...

i view that attitude as stupid...

exhibition finally over.. i'm tired but apart from tired... it is at this exhibition i able to see where i stand and my company stand...

thanks everyone for that support.. both morally and physically.. it means so much to me... and i am so so so happy... :)

means a lot

the bouquet was lovely and means a lot

insane

i'm going insane

human

my heart sink at times in moment of reading something....

hemm...

to not think much?? please.. we're human afterall

exhibition

i'm seriously more concern and excited about tom's exhibition than the world cup...

i just finish setting the booth up today, after viewing competitor's plan... i got nervous... however i welcome such challenge with open arms...

and i finally came out with what i think should be a good plan...

as many says... doesn't really care if its good plan or bad plan, so long as the plan work

i still think only few people are meant for this beauty industry game and not many people have the knowledge to play with it...

not saying i'm smart but i find many people don't really know what they are selling... they just sell for the sake of selling...

and that to me.. it's funny

drift

drift... it's not the stupid jay chou movie that i'm talking about..

u know something is drifting far when u see one

or drifting off when u feel one

i don really want to say much about it.... cause there isn't much to even say about it in the first place...

it's really mix thingy...

don't understand?? forget about it.. i tell u more next time

got into training today... u know what really tick me off??

friend is friend and i'm pretty clear about this all but i really hate people who think negative all the time... i seriously hate it... i know that i couldn't change everybody's thinking but y on earth would one be negative??

because lack in confidence?? we give ourself confidence and if we fail to give it even by ourself... go out and get it.. in short.. i don't care how u get it... u just have to push your confident level high

and i also hate when ppl shy away from challenges... hello?? is this how u gonna teach your kid next time too?? and the normal reply would be.. it's different

bullshit... it's the same.. if u cant even apply this theory to yourself don't even expect your kid will follow... so because he is your kid, u can shy away from challenges while he cannot?? that's like so BS

yes, i might sound stubborn at times but i really have my own set of thinking.... not many like it but i really hate to change my set of thinking for i beleive it is me who think and thats the reason why god give us brain... he didn't give us brain for decoration purposes

i began to talk to a lot of ppl and also did a lot of thinking these few days... i always tell ppl that it's really not gentleman for a guy to come in and brainwash the girl thus causing strain to their relationship...

but the more i sspeak of this, the more stupid i feel... y so?? because i don think ppl will even practice this shit... no, serious

i had this trick pull on me numerous time... and i just have a feel... it's a constant matter...

so seriously, acting gentleman is really stupid of u guys... just go out and do whatever u want.. and if u happen to like a girl that have a bf... screw that shit...

many would say if the girl can do this to the bf she will do that back to u

does it even matter?? this is how the world goes by afterall... only gentleman finish last... yea, like literally last

some would try to act gentleman will trying to get the girl... either way, u r still screwing with the girls mind

whose fault it is?? does it even matter??

steady enough to not let this get into your brain... that is what i claim as important... because this shit will eat u alive...

it's like i'm some sort of hater... hate this and that

there's something to look forward to next sunday.. i really do, just however.. again... i don think i'm the only one...

bandwagon effect

would like to share a story.... was working on a promotion till quite late one day. i chat with one of the property agent there and it was then that she reveal an absolute irressistable plan to me

this is what she said.... " u r a young fella, u know there's this developing going on by TLS developer on a new high rise at kajang? they r trying to make it like mont kiara, really good investment, only cost around 200k+ but with the ability to fetch rental of up to 1,800"

i began to stood up and listen tentatively about this plan or project.. it does seem like a good investment... she then continued "i have already ppl lining up to rent this unit which will be finish building in 2 years time, location is awesome with up to 9 uni surrounding it, and what makes it better is that it only need 1,000 as down payment, very low barrier to own a condo as an investment"

i began to notice this and asked more... she then bring me and one of my colleague there to view the place... my colleague was so pump he wanted to put the downpaymet down... i however have a few question raise

she said with strong statement that guarantee able to rent it out for foreigners, for they came to malaysia to study those master and doctorate at mention uni.

she is makes me think even more

property as investment is not a wrong move but always keep in mind whats assest and whats liability

1)how on earth can i rent it out for 1,800 on a 1k + square feet house even its fully furnished

2)stated that it only target foreigner as tenant, for they only have the cash to do so. These foreigner that u stated came all the way to malaysia to study master or doctorate, do u really think they r stupid to rent such place for such a price when surrounding landed house only cost merely 700?

3)even my house, a three storey house which located at bukit jalil can only fetch me a slight higher than 2,000 without furniture of course. kajang can fetch such high price?? i doubt

4)also only stated to me that it will cost me every month a slight higher than 900 ringgit to own this apartment. Even it's only 900, taking money out of your pocket to keep it running is a liability and not an assest

5)worst come to worst, i able to rent it out for 1,100 a mere profit of 200 ringgit every month. yes thats an assest of 2,400 per year. there r more work to be done for rental

6) assume u want to sell it off. a medium range condo is only selling at 120,000 which located just opposite of the site... for all i know the rent could even be cheaper... thats a rip off to me

7)if its so good, why only get 1,000 as downpayment

she hardly can answer my doubt and in the end acted really upset and walk off

nowadays sales ppl r like this, when they can't sell u something they eventually act all mad and walk off... seriously, if u fail to convince anyone, u should really look at your sales skill... don get all mad for nothing... u piece of wood

i however don't deny i'm looking into property, as one once said... i really dont want to just focus on what i want rather i want to focus on the future... a place for me and her to stay.. or just an investment for me and her

it's not always about the car.. lol

i make a few research and found out that kajang's house appreciate very slow.. like really slow... which prompt me to even think twice...

u think buy burger meh, need to think before u buy something.. or at least think how to make a liability to assest... my dad taught me one thing before... a good location house never have to go through really cheap housing before reaching that place...

cut it short my colleague wanted to jump the gun

the agent said one word to me before she left, everyone commit to this apartment even if it doesn't turn out well... u have many ppl who will suffer with u, and they r not that stupid.. so trust them too

your head~!! even i always teach this to my students, just because 9 out of 10 students said 1+2=4, that does not mean the answer is correct.. u at times have to think yourself...

trying to use the bandwagon effect?? i am certainly not a smart fellow but i am definetely not stupid.. not after many shit that i have encounter...

u think money easy to find ah...

lets c

have not been reading my mails, playing facebook nor logging on to blogspot... due to hectic schedule and many more other things

not too long ago, someone just got on to the flight and off she went to UK

since then, i sat back and do a lot of thinking...

before i wrote this blog, i came ot think of something...

yes, to think of own dream is not wrong nor being practical or logic is any wrong...

but how far have i thought of someone else??

car, house and also my ambition had occupy most of my energy and time.. that i couldn't disagree.. but seriously who don't want to make something out of their life??

i don't want to just live a life when i knew i could have achieve more

don't get married then... a small voice echo through my head

which makes me think...

hell lot

sometimes u couldn't get the best of both world or everything...

need to straighten up

lets c how this unfold