june 2

how irony that june 1 blog is the sweetest and happiest piece i have blog....

june 2 happen to be the worst....life likes to poke fun and make fun out of me.... i'm crush at this moment... like literally crush... they say what doesn't kill u make u stronger.. F*** stronger... just take my life... honestly, the stupid curveballs u throwing at me... really pound me hard...

i just had a dinner with a friend tonight.. he told me he got broken up... i cheer him up and ask him to go all out for it... he won her back in just a few phone calls.... all in all.. the girl wasn't even looking for a breakup... i shake him up real good and said "it's all in your head... u keep thinking she is breaking off with u.. she is not... it's your problem... wake up" i was happy for him to say the least...

who is standing by me this time round... me and my stupid determination... yea.. thats what it is...oh life... just because i can take the curveball that u r throwing at me doesn't mean i don feel anything!!!!!!

u let it slip off your mind, how much u mean to me and how far i'm willing to go for u this time round... u told me u r being tired, i didn't even expect u to move a bit while i'll be doing the groundwork or even most of the work... and no.. it's not bubble... it's not...

it's NOT.......

life has given me the biggest blow... not only to my dreams but also to my heart... u must be crazy that u think it'll crush my determination... but then... how much does my determination still means??

yes i break down looking at your brown eyes, do i listen to my mind or heart?? i don't know where to start in feeling alright again... i know u're going to be OK and that u're going to be alright... but do u know how much i need u in my life and how devastated it is to see my dream walking away?? u don't know how much i need u....

i'm looking for someone to share some light, not someone to get me throught the night...i feel lucky everyday to have u...where is that day??

u thought bucket of tears will make this ok?? u think a simple poem will make this ok?? u seriously feel a show of care will make this ok??

u must be out of your freaking mind~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no..... nothing no longer matter..... ShhHHhhh...

take me where u heading to lord... please... help your child...