may 20

have been really busy these few days... like seriously busy, with tutoring starting to take its toll and office work too... as exam nearing for my mba... it can only mean disaster for such a pack schedule

u c, i don't really mind working hard as long as it pays.... and at this moment, it's not going at the rate that i want... with this effort i'm giving i should be getting more than 5 figure for god sake...

christ sake

i've been doing lots of thinking as of this late too... like really a lot of thinking... i don't really know how to put this into words... it's just confusing, or rather not.... u c, i'm just making everything complicated myself....

*sigh*

i know there r bigger things in life to worry about... i do...

how i wish there is this button where i can just press reset or shut down... but no, in life there's no take two... it's a single take and u just have to keep running with it

i actually have many more that i wanted to say but i'm really tired at this moment... seriously both physically and mentally... tell me u understand when u're in my shoes... i know some r tasting worse i do

some dude just pm me earlier... oh running his mouth on lots of shit

u know, seriously.... don't come and talk to me about burden when u only need to pay 1 grand for both your car and household... don't come and crap to me about relationship when u have no idea what complicated and tough shit means... also go and say how stress your job is when u have no clue what stress means

seriously, i find it to be naive and retard.... it's stupid~!!

i finally today have a realy decent conversation... a happy conversation with a 65 year old lady.... she seems to understand what i'm saying and what i'm going through

no serious, i'm really happy to talk to her.... at least for once someone really understand what i'm going through.... for at this moment, i don't think anyone understand how i feel and what i'm going through... it's always about how they feel or what they think... when i speak about mine... they listen but always listen halfway and i got stop...

giving an example

i was talking about something today... i got stop twice..... towards the end though i wanted to say more but i don think the other party really have interest in listening more... else i won't be stop twice... so i decided to not continue and change my topic

is there anybody listening....