August 2

I stare at the wall, this is it... i told myself.. as much as it takes two to tango.. i'm the one that bring it all... the destruction.. everything

i couldn't agree more.. i couldn't bring myself up.... i had one of the best night yesterday... i couldn't sleep... i was asked why i couldn't shut my eye... my answer was brief and simple but i knew the very reason why i can't sleep is because i just want to take in and enjoy single of such moment which i knew wouldn't happen

i don know.. it could happen again but i have a funny feeling.. i have to eat everything thats happening yesterday night...

morning was rough, afternoon didn't get any better and throughout the evening, it was a rocky ride right until the every end.

it wasn't good enough...

when i look at the blog, i wanted to write and share so many things which i knew at a point.. i couldn't say..

i was label as a person who make ppl feel upset, i don know what i want, i bring dissapointment, i don care what or how other feel, i only know how to sweet talk, i don listen to feeling and only want to solve problem...

u focus so much a person's bad things... will u look back at the good things that i have done? maybe i didn't do anything good...

i fall to my knee and this time.. lord, please don save your son but take him away...

i screw things up... take me away

at this moment.. i no longer have the strength to do anything... it's really killing me...

i never hope it will mess up the trick
nor i ever want people to say we move to quick
it's ok for people to say i'm weak
so long i knew u're here and u think i'm great
i never mind going through hurdle of brick
or through hurricane of ache
so long i knew u're there and what we're in for is not fake
this is ours to take
if it's a dream i don want to get awake
it's a future and history both me and u r ready to make
it's so grand, better than copperfield's trick
negativity will always come and at us it aim and kick
as said, this is a future and history both me and u r ready to make