it's one two three four

it's nothing new nor special

i'm reduce to tears at this moment... seems like i'm always at the crying end... sound weak

i always... always thought what we shared r special... i recall your sms and what u have told me... i really thought it was special.. it even include the 3 special words...

how naive when it rings nothing.... u told me u r sad that u're hurt.... did u know i have to cry to sleep because of what happen?? just because i did not say or i seems ok.. doesn't mean i am.... u always say u mean nothing... but do u know everytime u say that... how u hurt me with those words?? of course u don't because u thought i can handle it... i'm a guy and i have to handle this~!!

u say i'm unfair and that everytime u have to endure it yourself... how about me?? when i listen to things i don like, c the things i don like, do i not have to solve it myself?? when u have things to do, when u have people u need to meet... to talk to... even i don't like.. do i not have to endure myself

what i do have to be fair to u but what u do i can't do.... don't speak about fair.... u always seem like the victim..... i'm never good enough for u..... think about my side?? then why things i don like still happen?? telling me not to bang things when u bang things too... i already say... u can do something i cannot do...

u took it.. break it then u tell me it's worthless...

i dream about u day and night.. but how can u be so stone cold to me..... u say i got no trust that my words means nothing that i'm no longer special....

u can sell alcohol or u can sell car, u can inherit business from your family or be like some sort of hot shot.. i know at least i build my business with my own hand and that i earn my degree hard... i know it means nothing to u... but i know pound to pound... i wont lose to your so call hot shot..