august 20

was shot down by sickness as of late... with fever bringing its friends along... crap~

i read my previous blogs... laughed along the way too.. there's a lot of sad story... lol.. i should start to write some happy stories

but sometimes... humans r funny.. now why would i say it's funny.. when u start to write something happy... some ppl might mistaken that u r cocky or that u r trying to show off...

i always believe.. u cannot change ones perception over u... some ppl might think of u as someone else while others might think otherwise.. what is real... to be honest... only u yourself know.. only your significant others know...

nobody think i can make it when i started with my TBE.. many feel it is too early, too soon... when i start to have vission and ambition to make it bigger.. people says it's too ambitious and that i don't have the time... to be honest, i don even know why at times i bother with all these thoughts.. like come on.. u don't even know what's going on, i understand your kindness to share your opinion but i have a firmer ground on my own ability and what i'm doing...

august 15 was a special day to me.. through august 15 to august 19.. apart from breakfast, we only share a movie and a dinner. ok, maybe it's a little demanding...

anyway, i have this rant i really want to rant it out...

say whatever u want but i am PROUD of what i'm doing and what i have done.. it irritates me when people act like piece of hot shot when they r not.. i don think i am an experience know it all SOB nor am i any super smart doctor.. but i don't think what i have gone through is that common... so for hotshot wanna be that want to throw words at me.. "know your role, and shut your mouth" talk when u have gone through half of what i have gone through...

talking smack, talking crap.. thats my rant..

due to what i have gone through i have my views on certain things... many do not agree on what i do but thats because u have not gone through what i have gone through... i seriously sometimes don't know what some people do the things they do too.. because not only i don't know what u have gone through but i don't know whats going on....

people like to judge me.. but when i jduge someone i'm consider an ass... i'm an open individual and is open on opion as well as feedback thrown at me.. if u can throw it at me, then take it when i throw it back at u...

unless u r dolce... yes, i'm bias but thats a different case all together

anyway... i have a small chat with a friend today... he talks about ethics on business... to sell things at a reasonable price, to give excellent service... i disagree.. yes, integrity is important in business but u don sell things because u think the price is reasonable.. u sell base on how much u can sell.. u think a honda civic selling at over 120K is reasonable?? that a house pricing at over 1 mil is reasonable?? that those facial product u r buying r reasonable?? do u even know their cost??

they sell base on how much they can sell... so again.. u judge me because of the pricing i'm selling?? what?? u must have bang your head hard on the wall..

i have a morning talk with a person today.. she told me.. u r a weird guy... u don't do what common guys do.. u don't like to talk about cars, u don't like computers nor do u like soccer... u don't like to read playboy magazine.. instead u like to think of business or play scrabble at home...

i know it's a little out of ordinary... sometimes maybe i only see it from my view that i fail to c it from others view but unless u explain to me, i will never really c it from a different view... it's possible i will try to stand on different ground but it takes time...

my opinion might come in as harsh but it's all because i have no understanding on why such event occur... i don get offended easily but it's best if something can be explain with total logic... answer such as because everyone is doing it is plain silly..

my rant for tonight... a night which is hard to sleep...