may 6

2.15am... i should be sleeping but no.. i can't... my mind is filled with lots and lots of things... things i knew i shouldn't be thinking of... shit....

i knew this is going to be tough... and i also knew it's going to take a lot of attitude to pull this off... i din foresee that "one-of-those-night" will be tonight...

what have i put myself in... let's call this a past midnight rant shall we??

i really don't know what this life is leading me to... this piece of trash... hurdles after hurdles.. hiccups after hiccups... if life is in front of me.. i will give it 1 big slap... and yell at it.. asking what it wants from me?? i mean.. come on... the hell is with dipping me into this pool of crap?? like i'm some kind of buffalo wings?? or what?? french fries?? dipping into the ketchup?? like can't u dip me into the pool of peace of mind?? it has to be the tough shit pool...

what?? u don't think i'm working my ass off hard enough?? come on.. give me a break... and YES I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO........... and i'm going to soldier this through.... but come on!!!!!! give me a break..... really..... give me a break..... life is never fair and never easy.... but the hell is with me getting the tough end?? come on~!!

honestly... i'm so giving this life thing 1 big bitch slap...

so yea... the more u think i'm going to give up because of all this shit u throw at me... u know what?? i never expect to come out from this war alive either way.... u better give me your best shot... if this is your best shot.. i still have 7 months to go before 2010 reaches... be sure i can't sleep for this coming 7 months because of this hard thing u throwing at me...

and to u lousy customers... the more u try to reject me?? the more determine i am in closing your sales~ u dont give me endless crap as in u don't have money, technology will change, no result or no intention of growing your business... so don't give me stupid excuses.. i'm sick of it... the moment TBE step in.. u r so freaking buying from me...

and to haters outside... don hate nor do u need to talk behind my back... let's talk face to face...

and to the loser.... please!!! only talk when u have something to back yourself up..... if u have work for 10 over years and still stuck in that shit hole... go and stab yourself... like literally stab yourself~!! don't even act like a big shot in front of me if i happen to see u... u r an embarassment... u hear me... an embarassment....

people call me JW.. y don't u call yourself ET... the E stands for embarassment..

and that to my blogamaniacs... despair23's midnight rant...

checking out.... with a slight peace of mind....