april 16

april 15th came and went by, just like that....

it's a erm.. how would i put it... interesting day and date for me

let me share

first and foremost... it's undoubtly an important date to me... so that alone is enough to make it special

secondly... a successful close of machine for the beauty salon called Gnile.. went by connaught or leisure, u'll c this beauty salon... just beside maxis... held a very large training today... all by myself... previously its a trainning or maybe 3-5 person.. but we're talking of a training between 9-11 ppl... i'm very happy with the training... the boss however was more than happy that they choose us and not AM, yes.. my arch rival...

i wasn't feeling too well today and the boss was really kind enough to buy me a coconut drink... haha, coconut drink on the 15th of april.. again.. coconut means more to me during this time... :)

as i switch my laptop on to conduct training... her picture pop up.. Haha, funny~!! yes... before i went to training i was actually viewng her pictures and i forgot to close it.. thus all the beautician was like... "teacher's pet~!!" i smile... who really cares what happen to be honest... the boss was the funny one... she replied... i'm happy that u're not gay.. when i first met u i thought u were gay

i laugh... luckily she told me this over lunch and not in front of all the people... i then talked to her about my situation... she smile and replied

no wonder u look lifeless today

what is with lifeless... everybody is talking about it

anyway she continue and again offer very very supportive words... also told me many experience she had heard in her life... mine to be honest was nothing

she then play with me with palm and personality reading thing... imagine how free beauty salon boss is eh... she also asked a lot of question

since i'm "lifeless" i play along... and since she is buying me lunch too.. lol... she really likes me.. haha

anyway she asked... despite it all or what u presume happen... if she ever comes back... what would u do...

i smile... i will again jump the gun and without much hesitation or question definetely be back with her... yea, sounds retard and desperate eh... yea... u don need to laugh or let me know.. i know why i say so and what my decision is... laugh all u want.. u want a bigger laugh?? despite it all, i will still pop the question... now, go ahead and laugh your ass off... u can go rolling on the floor too if u want...

she then replied..... u know jest... when a girl tells u the guy is there because of right timing means more problem than good things because she hasn't really know him... its just right timing.. maybe there's goodness but normally it will have lots of arguments too

just like me?? i think to myself... i know despite previously all the qualities that i posses.. yea so called quality, i did have a right timing...

anyway dont want to touch that...

i then continue with my training and work.. meet up with another customer... i have a veyr good feeling.. this is yet another sales that i will close..... that'll be 4 equipment sold if this and yesterday customer pay up by this week... i can't be any happier...

one once said, i lose her and i gain sales... having sales is great and happy feeling but it never compare to the feeling being with u..

anyway, let's continue

went for my tutoring thing... and then to neway to celebrate my staff's birthday... little i knew... though its her birthday she had invite lots of friends to actually support me... i was really touch by what she did and how her friend treat me...

it was really warm of them....

they then dedicate 1 song to me.. i thought what song it'll be.... the song name is called "can't take my eyes of u"

oh crap.. thats her favourite song.. they just have to do that.... anyway though i had a lot of emotion inside the room... i stay tough and was actually having a great time...

after the karaoke session.. we all went for foot reflex.... :D

we really really had fun... before we left, some new friends put their arm around my shoulder and offer their support...

it was really warm of them.... no, seriously at least they weren't a bit cold to me...

catch phrase from gary cao's bei pan song

"u say don't love is don't love and only left alone dealing with this sad feeling" no, there's not even one.. how u doing or if u're ok or if u need someone to talk to...

as i reach home... i receive a call.. again from another friend... asking me if everything is ok... oh wow.... all the way from canada.. really?? :) i'm more than touch by their show of support....

we chat for a while... as i hang up.. another call came in... also asking if everything is alright... stating if want to cry at least make it after april 15.. once the clock strike 12.01am on april 16 then i can go ahead

HAHA~!! i laugh... i did however manage past april 15th without crying.. yea there's a drop of tears here and there earlier today but again.. good job for me, i did a good job holding myself... interesting part is... how did this chick knew i just broken up... definetely the job of some boss and i exactly knew who... she is one nosy boss... i hardly even know this person and she make great courage to call me up and talk to me...

Haha

i'm really not that bad afterall, for blaming myself at things that i did so badly..

though i still have to agree i didn't do a good job..... i know at times i already did my best... i knew the things i did definetely couldn't be duplicate... that i'm very sure.. both bad and the good one... though i'm sure someone is better than me... i also knew... as u say, u prefer to scold me like a dog also happier than someone talks back.... not all guys can take that...

hey, thats again just a speculation... i could be wrong...

before i sleep a message from a customer.... very encouraging.. giving me the support i need... quote to quote

"focus on what u need to do, future is for u to grasp, u r young and have that limitless potential, few years is all u need. a reminder for u to stay strong and also to print my powerpoint by tomorrow"

what a funny but encouraging message....

if its meant to be it will be... i still firmly believe in this...

:)