time to stand tall

crap... going to c customer with swollen eyes again

however i firmly believe this is only small obstacle...

i read an article over the net just now...

quote to quote

"life is not what it is until u live it"

yea like saying is easier than done... i also read another blog... stating how a guy hurt the girls heart...

seriously, in a relationship be it guy or girl.. someone will definetely got burn.. in regards of words said.. holding oneself is seriously not easy

i got a friend who really love this guy and have dated for 1 year... she broke off i think just 3 weeks ago and guess what?? she is with someone new now.. not sure of that guy is her float or whatever... but she get over the old one pretty fast... we have a brief chat last night... i asked... do u still miss your ex?? she replied.. "of course, but i already move on"

thats seriously fast

when one said over its really over and i can't imagine how she can do it so quickly...

does it not mean anything to her the previous relationship?? lol.. i guess not else how fast can she move on

another quote i read "it use to be life in the light and now love in the dark"

i believe everyone also once walk such path...

life however is more than just a relationship... thing is this relationship thing really toy around with your emotions a lot...

i got a statement yesterday stating i shouldn't get my work affect by my emotions and how true it is... i couldn't agree more but in regards of how strong u r... i however also believe in regards how emotionless u r... u will be affected... simply because something is just that important

wielding at the side of the bed... i pull myself back up... trying to shake this off i constantly tell myself... "seriously, it's just an obstacle... if it is, it will happen by it self and remind myself not to think of it too much but rather give my all"

talk to my partner's gf yesterday..

she told me how the current bf is not treating her well while the previous one treat her better

this is my take

in this world, there's two type of guy

either he loves u more than u love him or u love him more than he loves u

there's no between

a guy that love u more than anything normally will end up him tying u down, maybe in many times holding u back and track every single things that u r doing... which make many girls at times feel uneasy

a guy that love u less would seriously care less on what u r doing, u can go wherever u want or with anyone u want and he don't really care.... he would in a way but inside he don't really care... such girl would have freedom to do a lot of things

of course one would say a guy would still love the girl a lot and still give her freedom... knowing all too well he is the best and she won't leave him

thats steady for he don't live for the girl and only for himself...

my point is.. even if u leave him, yes he will be sad but he don't really mind it

thats of course my take

i could be wrong

if human can be so emotionless there won't be so many sad songs around the world

if human can be so emotionless there won't be so many sad dramas or movies around the world

if human can be so emotionless there won't be so many novels written about it around the world

i can say... though at times i fail to hold my emotion intake... i don think i can help it much and thus affected my work at times

laugh and say whatever u want...

and i knew i could have wear a mask... but again this is life, this is your life, my life... i'm not living it for someone else and i should however wear a mask for u... however i never meant to hurt or offend anyone and i will do so with much caution

i just feel if i'm sad i don't want to wear a smiley mask... i'm no joker... i won't let it affect my work but i dont want to wear a fake smile either

a line once say, be proud of who u r... if u r not even proud of who u r... how u expect others be proud of u... fashion is not about trend but about being who u r... its about creating a trend of who u r.... a leader will always be admire, not a follower.. we r the leader of our life and if u want something go out and get it... however if things aren't meant to be your, it will never be... if it is.. no matter how u run away it will still belong to u

i want to take things easy

however i firmly believe... i am stronger than this

this is only a small path i need to take

as said... time to stand tall