dream

please let me have a say

i don't want to go about bursting all the bubbles

but really... it's not even past my birthday... really?? that quick?? i took a huge hammer blow but its ok, i knew in the past i have said something which hurt u or did something which makes u cry... to that i'm sorry

i don think i'm ever perfect

but come on.... that quick??

despite everything u said and u saying me of lying... how could u do that??

no, don't give me the excuses u're jusy making it easy for me... u're giving excuses...

u know whats going on and i knew it too... i don't think i'm retard but just a person who really knows u well...

there's no pitiness here nor is there any sorrow... more than broken down... i don't even know how to react except thinking what could have happen....

i had a dream last night... this is how it goes

me and u were in this amusement park... we got lost.... along the way u fell, and in the dream i remember i have to carry u out of the amusement park... we went to a nearby 7-11 to buy u bandages with that i buy u a bottle of mineral water too... we cap our evening off by walking along the shops to do some shopping... your knee hurts but when it comes to shopping u were lit up like a firework... u tried a few dress and we end up sharing a fishball noodle

perfect

and tears of joy roll down my cheek which then woken me up...

oh.. i thought to myself

crap, how i wish i did not wake up... now i have to lead this horrible life again

u know what i admire?? i knew a friend.. wasn't really close to him.. i have heard story of him and his gf, how they break up and how both of them ended up now...

hats off to him... he did an excellent job standing back up and at times let friends make a joke about it on him too... i don't know if he had let go but from the look of it, he is doing great now...

i know i have to walk the same line as him but man, is this walk extremely difficult to walk......

of course i knew, previously with u holding my hands, even walking past the path of dragon is a walk in amusement park of course instead of carrying u.. u will be holding my hands.....

talking of this is really a tears jerker... since i'm having my holiday now, might as well cry eh?? lol...

by the way, thanks for all the support i receive............ not much... really not much but it really means a lot