just too special

i wanted to c her so much.... to hold her hands and walk as we use to.... he giggle and laugh like we use to... to wait for her while she go to the bathroom... to look her in the eyes while going down the escalator.... and to hug her from behind while she is reading magazines....

i wanted to talk to her so badly at night through the phone... to had our breakfast again.... and at times lunch.... to watch movie together while having our popcorns..... to play house of the dead 4 again.... and to hold your bag while u're shopping for those cosmetics

i wanted to kiss her on the cheek and tell her how beautiful is she.... to smell the fragrance of her hair.... to hug her to sleep..... and let her lean on my shoulder when she is feeling sleepy.... to call her when i thought of her.... to gossip whatever that is going on in our life....

i wanted to go for foot reflex again with her and at times enjoy our taco-taco..... to pick her up after her activities....

most importantly to tell people who she is to me and be with her till the very end of time.....

i vented this out earlier today......... i couldn't stop crying since......

my friend look at me and said.... u must have love her a lot

i replied.... i don think it's enough..... some of my characteristic which come with it are deem as weaknesses by her.....

well, thats the sacrifices u have to take he replied......

there r something u can change but there r something u cannot change... it's in u... thats what makes u, u.... u can't... i tried and i know.. u can't change

of course there is nothing which cant be done but i know when u're pushing too hard and fail to change

looks gay but i put my head over his shoulder and cry.....

there r few people who came by my life but basically to make it real... there's only two.... of the two... though different.... i knew i had love the later one more.... i know i have gone crazier and got really upset before

in regards of what had took place, which i really hate.... she is still too special for me..... just too special